I'm blank,nothing to pen down.I have two B- school applications to fill out,one of which has to be received before 15th,I'm too lazy to do any of the writing.I have two assignments to be submitted on Monday.I have ma fair seminar copy to submit too.I have a bank test on Sunday.I'm to compete in mock press and extempore tomorrow.I have to finish with ma modules[I don't have a clue how many]before next week.I have to apply to NTPC and BHEL by next week.I have a test coming up this week and i have to start from scratch.I have ma lab manual to be filled out by Friday.I have loooots and looots of work to do.

Now for some good stuff,I had the best week ever.Who gets to celebrate their birthday thrice?I did with ma friends, who invaded ma space this Sunday,It was a fun day out with lots of food,pillow fights,gossips and God knows what.I competed for two competitions this week though, I'm not hoping for a prize ,I had a fun day out.I get to see ma Sister after a long time,something that i was looking forward to.Though I couldn't go out with her that day just seeing her made ma day.Ma mobile had a busy week ,with the afternoon conversations getting longer much to ma pleasure,it was kind of a smooth week.I received call letters from two banks and I spent lot of time with ma best friend.

Lets hope the week ahead i will be able to burn of some weight in form of piling work load.

The other side of me!!!

When someone has the guts to tell me, on ma face that ma decisions are wrong,I may take time off to dig into and correct with ma mouth shut. But,once you turn bitchy behind ma back you will have to bear the heat of ma wrath.Dude!!!!! I don't have any idea what so ever about the distant vision of the committee which entrusted you with such a heavy job. I don't know whether you are deserving or not but, a whole section of people don't think you are, you are nothing but a mistake that we can't seem to correct.

I'm doing ma duty to select the best students for the literary events ,the thing is with 500+ students in one house and only few who are interested in writing I'm left with no other option other than to pick from the available few.You do your job with very seriousness only to be booed in by your own mate.Last day i kept ma cool and sorted things out but,when after the events Mr.you know who started bitching behind ma back I just couldn't take his worldly knowledge any more.I said"I quit" maybe it wasn't wisest of decisions.I had ma self respect to guard and for someone to meddle with ma rights was totally unacceptable. His whole attitude of 'the selection was wrong for i found the other houses much better than ours' was something i wasn't expecting.When i was putting forward ma case in front of the captain i peeled of ma goody tag and shouted"If he knows how to create Keats and Wordsworths i will back out,let him do the selection".The captain ,one of the most mature guys in class did bring down the tension by forcing the guy to apologise.I wonder!!! why doesn't he have the guts to speak on ma face,but then he will have to face harsh realities which at his age he is not ready to.Maybe, he is not ready to take in counter questions from ma side I can break the other persons confidence by shooting in questions which is another talent inherited. Mr....we may had issues in the past,but i never let ma past affect ma present if you want we can start with the dirty games,take out the skeletons from the closet but, then don't chicken out. If you are mean to me, I can be the same to you and if you keep on to your own zone i will too and no one will be hurt in this war.

21 Things!!!

21 THINGS THAT CAN GO WRONG ON YOUR 21ST BIRTHDAY

You get a soap as your birthday gift from your brother.



You get sick the day before your birthday.



You sleep off before 12:00 am.



You never get to attend any calls or messages because of reason no.3.



You fight with your beloveds at 3 o' clock in the morning.



Your dog bits off your favorite chappals .



You misplace the house keys and can't find the spare one to lock the house.



You run on a late schedule and decides to skip college.



Your angry friends calls you up .



Your forced to attend an early lecture by your dad.Yawn!!!



You waste away your morning in front of the idiot box.



Your BF accidentally reveals about the surprise party to be held for you.



You walk all the way to your college on foot under the hot sun.



You can't message any longer for ,you are out of balance.



Your lunch gets eaten up by friends and you end up with an empty stomach .



You get all smithered on face with the birthday cake.



You find out you have tons on notes to cover.



You forget about some of your friends and they end up complaining"We didn't get the cake".



You can't walk for ,your leg hurts!!! thanks to the wrong chappals.



You never get to taste the chocolates you brought for ,it was empty before you knew.



You reach back home and sleeps off at 10 pm,before the day is officially over.

Reunion 05'

A post on REUNION 05' is long due.I wrote it the evening of the event but, unfortunately i misplaced it I could have written another one but,it wouldn't capture ma emotions in the same way as it did the first time.I kept aside the idea of another post and today i found the piece of paper in ma book.Opal proudly presents to you REUNION 05'

DATE:24/12/08

TIME:5:00 pm

I don't have to be a mirror image of ma past,stuck in the cubicles of wrong doings.I have to shatter the glass walls and let go of ma egos so as to prove that people around me were wrong in their judgement.When I was invited to REUNION 05' it was a stroll back to the memory lanes, to the school that taught me lives valuable lessons apart from the usual dusty CBSE reference books which, I used to open once in a year just before the exams,the school that taught me that labs are not meant for experiments instead its a place from where gossips originate[I still abide by that rule religiously].More important school was a place which gave me countless number of souls who can put through ma stupidity even after 3 years.

Even after countless takes and retakes I kept on committing the same mistakes but, in a different context each time.Seems like the school wasn't successful enough in inducing real life intelligence in me.As for yesterday it was a dream come true to see the xii A madness come alive under the roof.Sam was ready with his PJ's,Riya in her usual chatter self, Manjunath hitting bulls eyes, Devi, Sanju, Jinu and Sneha as always together.Nothing has changed ,it was as if time stood still for 3 +years.There were some visible changes too like Sneha's 3000 rupees valued straight hair,few extra pounds for Jeebs and shedding of few extras for ME.Though i was little aloof initially i busted out of ma shell soon enough to make ma presence felt.I never expected the that kind of an atmosphere,with plenty of food and drinks considering the fact that the organisers didn't ask for a single penny from any of us.I even rang up mom to get ma lunch ready that wasn't necessary as, all of us were served appam and curry.Exchanging hugs,wished ,phone numbers I slipped back to ma days in school.I don't know if all of ma actions in school were justifiable but, no one seemed to bother much.This is one good thing about human attitude people play amnesiac for replacing bitterness with happiness.Its not practical on a long run but 4 hours is too Short of a time to accuse and fight.Me and ma big B left out the idea to scramble our pasts and let the few months happening fill up the bitter sweet memories.The face to face conversation brought tears,laughter and much needed relief.Ma left hand, Doctor gave me the biggest surprise,he wasted ma balance for nothing.The day before we had arrived on a consensus on whether he should arrive for the reunion owing to his medicine exams.He gave me a shocker by being there and also,I was so excited to see Ancy .Even after all this I missed people like Manju ,Nestly ,Divya ,Ruchika ,Aftab who couldn't make it.

Thanks to the whole organising committee especially Jithu for bringing the whole concept to reality.Some memories don't just fade way,it becomes a part of you for eternity.REUNION 05' was one such memory.

THE END

On a random note,i received a text from Jav:Your birthday coming right?.No gifts?

Me:yup bday on 21st........i donno about gifts....u can ask ur best buddy if he intends to get me any..

I'm born Hindu and though there is no monetary or employment benefits involved in being one,still I'm proud of ma religion.I regard ma religion as a part of ma identity and whenever someone put up a yard stick to measure ma beliefs I tend to get little irritated.I have total respect for all the other religions as, I believe the ultimate aim of any religion is the same.

The part of the story happened this week and there isn't a climax yet so,it may not sound interesting to many .I believe i need to vent out ma thoughts somewhere and this is the right place to do so.We were informed last day about three days retreat camp which in turn is an in-stay program for Christians and outstay for others.The point here is that the program was made compulsory for all the students in the college,failed to do so you are bound to pay the fines.What is more annoying is the date and time for the program.Initially for non Christians ,the program was scheduled on Friday, Saturday and Sunday from 8:30 to 4:30 pm.After protests from parents, the management re-introduced the program as one which induces a +ve mental attitude in younger generation.Well,the brochure clearly states the program as the quest to search for the meaning of life .As an engineering student,ma goal in life is predefined and all others are secondary right now.21 years ,I lived ma life with this attitude and it hasn't done any damage,why do i need someone to tell me ma attitude is wrong and I can attain salvation through dance and song?.Iv attended similar programs organised by the college not out of choice though.The concept the person in question put forward then in turn clashed with some of ma value systems.

Iv been giving the whole thing a lot of thought.Why force this kind of things on students who are not interested?.Why make it compulsory?. After the fiasco what hurt me most was the comment made by one of the faculty"Those non Christians interested in attending Sundays program do inform earlier so that accommodation can be provided in rooms of their Christian friends".This statement was booed by ma mates.We don't make friends based on caste or creed,we celebrate Onam,Bakrid and Christmas with the same vigour and unity.Why is the older generation bend on dividing the society based on Religion?.We have the right to follow any religion as per the constitution of India ,why being forced to accept another?.Ma Dad calls it"BRAIN WASHING"

Last day Indian express reported on mass conversion in tribal belts by missionaries.Conversion is based on monetary gain.Most of the tribals are lured in with cash and other luxuries and the only way to lead a life that guarantees them all this is to convert.Here the belief is based on "Gandhi on paper",its certainly not something that is from deep down the heart .To force someone to change their whole life doesn't seem fair.I'm a Hindu and I'm proud of being one.

Can pain come in between me and ma desires?NO!!!.Yesterday, I went in to get the third installment of"HOLE IN THE EAR"saga.Each of the upper earring has its own story to tell, with the first one frankly I don't remember .Reliable sources[Mom] informed me that I got it when I was hardly six months old.I do remember about the next one's journey though and she was first initiated in the year of 2006 .Someone from ma own clan brain washed me into getting an upper stud, and the strangest thing is that I was fooled by her proclamation"It wouldn't pain even a little".I went in the jewellery store to get ma gold stud,much to ma opposition as I wanted to get a silver one.When you are in the border line of "I may get or may not get too ",its better to give an ear to your parents .Shout all you want to and when you feel that they will back out of their promise just because you want it you way ,reduce the volume and reach a settlement after all, if the deal doesn't go through you are the one to loose.Back to the story,I was given the gunshot and it just tickled,the one I got was the stud used in gunshot and the jewellers informed me that I can switch into ma new earrings once the hole is completely healed,they estimated it to be almost one month.Within 2 weeks I started getting some weird feeling,ma body was beginning to react and ma poor ear turned red.I was forced to remove ma stud for two day and on third day as I was all set to insert the little one back in place I realised something:The hole was MISSING!!!! the hole closed up.It was a big disappointment especially considering the fact that I wanted it for quite a long time and I was just beginning to sink in to the new look.I was all set for the next test so, I went back to get it re pierced.That hole too disappeared within one month so ,after two failures I gave up may be this stud thing is not ma cup of tea.Two years later,this August I had his re urge to get the stud back .I went in to the same place ,almost all the staff were quite used to ma sight this time.They advised me to go in for the traditional method of ear piercing ,where you literally pierce through the ears rather than just a small gunshot.Well, it wasn't ticklish feeling then but,it was a journey into an alternate world ,the world where only pain persist and you have no other emotion.After 5 months of ear holidaying, I was gripped by the desire to go in for the third one .Crazy ain't it?ma mom opposed the move with whatever power she had,the fear of seeing her daughter as a Gypsy was gripping her.Finally after wasting a bucket full of ma tears ma dad intervened.He supported me upright but,being a logical man he is was quite confused about the need for a third one.Even I was not sure even still,as when you want something so badly logical explanations doesn't seem to be of any importance.Most of us do things or get things because,we want to .Call it consumerism or luxury but ,the thing is for things we want utility is not a key factor.May be within 3-4 years you will loose fascination and that particular thing gets to be the newest addition in"I own it but, I don't wear it" club.Me and mom went into the shop and I chose a stud which was larger than the one I was wearing then so, I wanted to change the position.Unfortunately, I asked ma mom to change the studs for me,I removed the one I got in August for the first time so,it pained and by the way ma mom was opening it,even the bravest ones will fall apart.She nearly broke ma ears,that's ma mom when asked to put 100% she puts in an additional 100% just to waste her energy.This time too I had the traditional method of ear piercing and it bled a little,this time it was far horrible that the last one .The pain lasted one full day and even now am not okay.So much for ma desire....Can pain come between me and ma desire may be YA!!!!.

BUNNY TALES

I'm finally getting tired of the holidays.Wish i could go back to college,the place i love to hate.College officially started on 5th, and I'm yet to make an appearance.Debates,discussions on ARTS fest are in full swing .I'm deviating from what i indented to post in the first place,I don't think all you people will be excited to hear about ma boring life.First things first,this incident happened 5 months before and it really taught me that most of us are ignorant about the hot topics in college.No one cares about Israel attacks or LTTE camp been captured by Lankan army.So,what are the hot topic being discussed by future engineers?.Here is ma take through a past experience.

Iv a big fetish for earrings,I do blow away a small part of ma not so hard earned pocket money on anything shiny and beautiful.Like any other shopping day I went to Goodwill,in search of the right earring.I made up ma mind and decided to go in for small studs instead of large ones that fill up ma wardrobe. I searched through 100 of small earrings before coming to a halt on a small rabbit earring.The very next day i wore ma rabbit to college,and all the girls seemed bowled by ma choice . Someone even commented i looked cute with the rabbit in ma ears.That very evening while in canteen i noticed Samir staring at me "di show me your ear" he said.Well,i was quite apprehensive initially mainly ,owing to the fundamental rule"GUYS ARE NOT INTERESTED IN GIRLY ACCESSORIES". He went on staring at ma rabbit and all of a sudden his face began to shine"I love it!!!" he said with a grin on his face.The incident was long forgotten but, not until the next week .

The very next week during L n T recruitment of which i wasn't a part still,i wore the same Rabbit earrings.While walking through the corridors George stopped me, he was giving me the same look Samir gave me a week before"Aren't you wearing a playboy bunny?".Transformation from rabbit to bunny was fun but, PLAYBOY was definitely not fun.George called in almost everyone and showed them ma earrings"Look what Opal is wearing:A playboy bunny",most of the guys were giving me weird looks."I never knew" I told them innocently."You don't know play boy bunny?" Vish asked."Well, Guys common,the only book I'm accustomed to is ma engineering books,not playboy magazines " i tried to hide in ma embarrassment behind ma inflated courage.I saw Samir in between the crowd with the grin of his.So, he knew it all along and never let me know Grrrr.....I removed the earring to avoid further embarrassment and hid it safely in ma locker.Me and ma playboy bunny became instant stars in the campus.Well, now you know what worldly knowledge you need to survive the hurricane called college?

Ma new year started on a wrong note.Guess, i will have to get it out of ma head and move on.Once we start giving too much attention to coincidences,we get consumed by them.For instance,when you are about to go for something important and something small goes wrong,like you find your lucky shirt ruined it gets into your head that the work won't go as planned.In ma case most of the time it doesn't go well but, ma friends feel that there is a phsycological angle to that.When something does go wrong the end result starts getting calculated by the brain and it gets stored.The motivational factors are decremented and we end up getting an equivalent result as we wouldn't want to put in at least 1% more because we have already accepted defeat.Is it true?? well, i don't know . Ma mom calls it Signs of God,when something is not going to be in right odds,things,places,sequence all start relating itself to a previous bad experience but,most people don't relate to them.It so happens that we think about it after the incident and some who just don't know what to do with these signs.I'm a big believer of these signs and it doesn't make much of a difference if any of the readers feel I'm crazy but, the thing is am not the power to stop things from happening as they are.I prepare ma self so that the aftermath of the incidents don't alter ma life.

New year is supposed to nature new hopes but, it seems i have dead end ahead.I'm not ready to give up yet for, life is worth a fight.People,makes up pre consumed notions about others without going deep into their personalities.You have the right to accuse someone in front of others when you are perfect else,let it be buried in your heart. To me college is nothing more than a place where i can educate ma self on important lessons in life.Bonds,issue... i don't wanna relate ma self with any of these and if someone feels its overconfidence what can i say?. I'm not a person who likes to display ma weaknesses in front of everyone.Some do know how fragile I'm and those are ma best pals for others ,I'm what I'm not in real. Deep down even if i burn i prefer to keep ma calm outside and if anyone thinks this is overconfidence ,what can i say?.I know that I'm not so intelligent so as to put ma self in front of ma professors and to challenge them.I'm a student and the limited knowledge i have is from those who took pain to teach me a part of what they have learned.I'm like sponge all set to absorb whatever on ma way, good and bad.Its a constant struggle to eject out of ma system, the things i think is not good. Its a constant learning process.They say the true learning-teaching process starts once you are in real world,i am not sure if am ready for such harsh realities but, sooner or later i will have to start accepting things as they are. There are places where i would like to clarify ma self not with at most pleasure but,places where wrong notions can affect me on a long run.May be after 4 months i can place ma self in a position where ma professional and personal life hasn't have to be subjected to autopsy by those involved in teaching process.I do respect all those involved in ma evolving process but, there is always a thin line between correcting and dictating. I believe that few people who do have a right on how ma life should be is ma parents and 2 of ma close friends. There are a few who think I'm capable of greater things and i have been wrong about some whose criticism meant nothing more than statements enforcing the above said statement.Well, I'm always open to constructive criticism and I'm always ready to learn new things as long as everyone knows where to divide the line.