Thursday, December 18, 2008



I was never good at writing improvement .I was always blessed aplenty by ma university with more than expected marks.I never felt it as necessary to jump into the league of people who have taken improvement as a hobby or people who are never ever satisfied with their marks. I wrote ma last improvement in semester 3, for C programming as i felt injustice has been mended out.I wasn't as bad as the university marks projected me to be so, armed with determination i applied for improvement ...what i didn't know was, i will be running out on fuel after ma regular exams.Still, putting a brave face i wrote ma improvement and scored 15 marks more. I closed the chapter on improvement that day and taught ma self to be happy with what's in hand. There were occasions where i wanted to jump into the bandwagon but, i restrained ma self owing to past experience.This time even after scoring second highest score i chose to write the CST improvement"What hell!!!" people exclaimed .It wasn't going to change ma decision based on the moment's impulse.Let me burst the righteous code,ma decision was also based on the fact that, if most of the people now lagging behind me by 15-20 marks achieve their targeted score then ma mark for the last semester will be pointless and if i can bring about the same percentage increase in ma marks i will be scoring a match point.In hunger without even thinking about ma own attitude i decided to write in spite of ma brain telling me not to.The exam was held 7 days after the last regular exam, unexpected things cropped up and i was shuttling between places.Within days i was in lazers paradise eating and sleeping in random manner.Last semester i found CST a tough cookie to crack owing to the problematic approach,I'm good with problems but ,CST belonged to a special class called graphical problems.The question paper drew ma breath away,though i managed to get 3 problems fully correct and 2 problems half i wasn't satisfied.The extra papers i requested for hit an all time high of 11 ,lastly i had to cut so many single papers out for, i hadn't written anything in them.I was tensed and nauseous after being griped by the fear of 40-[Fail].As i walked out of the hall i met with gloomy faces all around.Most of them had written the paper even worse than me.I dumped ma text book in the back of the car vowing never to open it again.When the results came in me and ma girlfriend scored the highest but, there were 23 supplies in ma class, the highest in the whole college.

2 days before the exam ma best friend reminded me "to study",that's when it stuck me i had to get ma book back.I spent some quality time with Nicholas chart, bode plot ,root locus soon, i was slacking driven by nothing ,not the enthusiasm or the vigour .I knew the task of getting even 1 mark more was impossible.Filled with confusion i contacted some of ma very close friends to know their take on "Whether i should give the exam a miss".most people with a concern for the money i spend for applying asked me to give it a shot as i had nothing to loose.If i scored less than ma existing marks will stay else, the new one.I went to the exam hall yesterday to find it near empty .Most of ma mates backed out.The question paper was even worse than the first one.The only comforting part was the theory.This time too i got 3 questions right and 2 questions half right.The effect is same i suppose.Lets ,wait for the results

By the way I'm done with improvements.

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