Maniacs!!!!!

Who told guys don't care about girly stuff?oo...The only thing that they bother about is GIRLS!!!.They are so keen observers that any change in a gal ,be it in hairstyle,nail polish colour or even pimple will be easily detected.I can't understand why me and ma little pimple was in almost every conversation i had today.She became an overnight star.Usually ma skin is devoid of any ups and downs,red marks,scars and what so ever and to an extend i was little proud too.One day suddenly out of nowhere a pimple started showing up signs of birth and what a nice place for it to settle down,right above ma right cheeks,exposing its red plump status to the people around.Slowly...i started having bad dreams about her.Decided!!!!!!!I'm was gonna squeeze every inch of her and ya successful.

Next day as i stood in front of the mirror,i had shock of ma life.She left a mark of her previous life,a black mark and also her own breed have sprouted up in near by position.The new one is far worse.EEks!!!! she is out to get revenge.She is growing bigger, larger and nastier by each hour.People love ma pimple.They do stand admiring"Hey Opal what's above your cheeks?"asked few guys with a devilish smile.JErks!!!laughing at devastated mE.....I'm bound to get rid of ma new found"UGLY BETTY" status in days to come.

Destined to Be.......

"Your right may be other persons wrong"-Nivz (ma pal)

"What you believe may be what other peson despise"-Smi (ma pal)

When you preach something and call it as "your principle" people admire you but,sometimes it so happens that time may force you to look over ,what believe was your principle.This in turn irks people and let them to believe you have changed,even if you haven't in your attitude.Mostly ,you never figure out whats happening until someone says that on your face.What should i have done?.Should i have stood there trying to hold back something,that was never destined to be or should i have walked over ma decisions?.I chose the later path and like a bud ,today i find the outer petals withering off.I try to hold fast,i try to stop them from withering but ,can i stop what is bound to be.My right and your wrong (it can be vice versa too) it should have never clashed.We could have avoided this situation but,bro you never gave me time.All you did was to turn back and say out loud"YOU CHANGED" and just walk away .You never thought what i was going through .I wanted you to be a part of ma present life but,What you did was ,to make me feel miserable.You can say"I'M TELLING ALL THIS BUT,DON' FEEL SAD".What do you think I'm?A puppet?A stone?an emotionless idiot?.I know I'm too dependent on people .I thrive on people's emotions but, this as usual is a jolt to ma life .I never expected or foresee this event.I always gave you an important position in life.You said "YOU WANTED TO BE HAPPY" what about me?You didn't even bother to stop and think.I don't have any justifications to make nor do i have anything to say.FRIEND I WISH YOU ALL THE BEST

CrestFAllen.........

I'm devastated,broken and in a confused state.Where did i go wrong?.Right now all that is visible is the blurred screen.Makes me feel worthless,the more i try to control the more deep the cut becomes.Iv never expected this from you bro.I still can't figure out what did i do wrong.I don't consider ma self to be perfect and at this moment I'm torn between people and events.I know i may not be able to move ahead as i used to do.This is not ma past, its ma life ,this is the broken me.Its not me who never used to cry but,me who breaks open her heart to see not blood but,voidness.I don't think i can break away from responsibilities ,actions ,reactions ,frankness,laughterand tears.I'm crestfallen and i will have to come out of the very dark dungeons.

Tight walk.......

When the people you hold so close behaves like strangers,trying to avoid you for a reason that's way beyond your control that's when thing get to the bottom of the heart.People want me to speak,but one thing they fail to understand that there is no room for conversation if the person on the other side is not ready to open up.It was always a dream for 4 of us to get placed in the same company but,as luck would have it i got placed in a reputed firm whereas 3 of ma pals are yet to strike gold.The do's n dont's iv been listening to from other pals and also from parents .I really want to help them out but, ma actions can be interpreted in a way that will lead to further complication.The phone conversations are short and to the point. I never feel the same old warmth and affection, the words sounds as if being forced upon.All i can do right now is to pray.

Hate being ME!!!!!!!

Iv being logging for some change in the not so perfect life of mine.And finally i found the perfect way:Go in and get a crazy hairdo.Iv searched whole of Internet to help me through.Bad idea,for ma hair dresser loves ma hair .She keeps on praising ma hair and finally ends up giving the same cut over and over again.Don't even bother to ask how much i hate that.It makes ma life so dull. Today I'm not gonna fall into her trap.Do pray for me and Ma new hairdo........

Life to loOk beyonD

Well seems like I'm running out of topics for ma blog.The climate is so calm, its just refusing ma brain to think.Iv been wanting to get out of house badly but,seems like the rain is playing spoilsport.I love the outdoors though I'm not physically one.Iv always wanting to do something adventurous but,paragliding is the only thing i did anywhere close to that term.I'm logging for some real action ,some real drama ,some real LIFE!!!!!

Rain Rain GO Away........

The weather has the power to affect human moods and emotions.It was raining all day and ma plan to go shopping with bro was given upright wet welcome.Bro was so busy preparing for the exams that he even drubbed ma offer for a treat.Well ,thanks to the cloudy atmosphere even i and Mikku was lazying around trying to put up excuses for not getting up from the couch.All i wished for is some hot cup of tea and a blanket.Wish i could afford that luxury!!!!mama just hates me sitting doing nothing and she goes complaining on and on.To give some rest to ma ears i follow her not so sweet tunes.The one thing that really pulls me off from shopping on a rainy day is the extra burden of carrying ma umbrella around.Its inconvenient most of the time and very difficult to mange.The "whole you" getting wet....oof.....better off "NOT SHOPPING".Bro was all charged up and raring to go in the morning and later up the evening i could actually hear him sing"RAIN RAIN GO AWAY".Cloudy days do affect us adversely.A bright ,warm day induces confidence,faith and hope in us.Its still drizzling and i just hope that it stops raining..............

Confused

New meaning,a new beginning marred by some unpleasant events.I can't seem to understand what went wrong and where.I'm not going to go on explaining ma actions and expect reactions that ought to be.This time I'm to be blamed ,letting ma emotions bulldoze ma friendship.I expected to be understood but,unfortunately failed to understand the variables involved.I don't know what to do and the stakes are high.

FiNaLIy!!!

Life can't get any better.I'm one happy soul.For days iv haven't slept properly ,just staring at the blank walls trying to figure out a way for ma self.More than the pain it was the regret that was haunting me.The regret of being not wise enough.I walked heavily through the corridors avoiding people's smiling faces.More over it was the fear of being caught crying.At a point of time i started doubting ma self and ma caliber.Its a long struggle on the way to the top.Officially I'm placed and have a job at hand.Now i can move ahead and follow ma dreams,the ones that i always wished for.People around backed me ,helping me to get back to life.And finally after a long wait ,I'm back to ma self,smiling ma way through.Once again i would like to thank all those who supported me upright.

Thank You

While in the most difficult of times the comfort comes from most weirdest of places and yesterday i experienced it.What do i have common with them?.A few days of work together and occasional smile nothing more but,the first person to call me up was ma senior:Soumya after she got to know i didn't make it through.She did bring down the intensity of emotions i was going through.Then,ma seniors Govind,Narayan and Sayuj all of them personally did help me to get over ma fears.None of ma mates called well ,can't blame them too but,frankly i never expected so much support and care from the class next door.I knew from their words that those weren't the words of sympathy but,genuine concern.The first people to ring me up today too were ma seniors.Well thank you all for supporting me during ma rough patch.

Smiling all way through..........

Having to sit here,struck by pain of missed chance is really annoying.I'm really feeling sad as because i didn't make it to TCS.Well,also happy for the fact that 100 of ma friends did.Really got to know how hard it is to keep smiling while is just pain what you experience.Crying hard,cursing ma self upright but, thinking on to the right dimensions i think it was worth the time for i got the exposure and the courage to move on to ma second interview with INFOSYS.A job is every ones dream and my dream lives on in a different context.

Blank note

I don't have a topic to write on,a better wish to pray for,A dream to repeat on....This is ma life ,happy with the way it is.I know its impossible with so many things going around but iv ma reasons.Im thankful to the almighty for making ma life rich in every sense.Well, even after all this i haven't got rid of ma complaining attitude.But whatever the feeling is I'm loving it more with each passing day.Hope ma life remains as sweet as its now for ever and ever.

LOve UnExplaAineD

I found this entry pretty cute and close to heart

I promise to give you the best of myself
and to ask of you
no more than you can give...

I promise to accept you the way you are...
I fell in love with you
for the qualities, abilities,
and outlook on life that you have,
and I won’t to reshape you
in a different image.

I promise to respect you
as a person with your own
interests, and needs,
and to realize that those are
sometimes different--
but no less important--
than my own.

I promise to share with you...
my time, my close attention,
and to bring joy and strength
and imagination to our relationship.

I promise to keep myself open to you...
to let you see through
the window of my personal world
into my innermost fears and feelings,
secrets and dreams.

I promise to grow along with you...
to be willing to face change
as we both change
in order keep our relationship
alive and exciting.
And finally,

I promise to love you
in good times and in bad,
with all I have to give
all I feel inside...
in the only way I know how...
completely and forever.

Doggy Blues

A new addition to the family,a chocolate brown Labrador named "MIKKU".Well ,i sure do agree to the fact that puppies and small kids both are same:curious,bad tempered,attention seeking.She is just 45 days old and loves chewing the sofa.No matter how hard we try,she just refuses to be inside her cozy little place.But,there is one problem ,ma mom who was all in vigour when we went in to buy the puppy has lost all her fuzz and is running around the house trying to save herself .In simple words:she is scared.The only thing MIKKU wants is someone to play around with.In one or two weeks we will be shifting to the new house where she has lots of open spaces to play around.Hope the situation gets better by then.

Distance do matter

Some relations are just perfect from a distance but, when it comes to one on one chat or even a small smile the relation just falls apart.Are distant relations true to the core?.When a person on the other side of a distant conversation says"lol",we are not even sure whether the person is really laughing out loud or just frowning.The warmth and support vaporise into thin air once the distance disappears.There is always a barrier ,always something to fear about in such relations.Well i think ,if something has to remain beautiful for ever and if distance is the only key for it to remain so "let distance exist".

Spartans on top.........

How does it feels to win and that too from scratch?.Feeling good?.The arts fest finally did happen after long long wait.At the end of the first day we were in for a shock, ma group ,SPARTANS was placed last in the tally because We failed to bag prizes for literary events.The progress that we made from day 2 was just amazing and at the end of the day,SPARTANS were back on top.Day 3 began on a tense mode with three main team events and almost 70 marks at stake. The second group,MOUGHALS were catching up fast. It was a do or die situation.All our hopes were pinned upon Brand wars,Thematic dance(guys and gals).By afternoon MOUGHALS were on a lead by 10 points and the heat was rising.After the brand wars,the tensions slightly made some of us hysterical.We had to win thematic , first prize for both the events to be back on top.After the events got over we were quite sure "its either SPARTANS or MUGHALS",all it was left was to wait for the final tally.
presenter:"and the second position goes to MOUGHALS"
The next thing we knew ,we were shouting and hugging each other.SPARTANS have finally won the arts trophy.It was just the matter of calling out our name
presenter:"and the first position.........."
I couldn't hear anything at all.We drowned the whole auditorium in our excitement.Well the story doesn't end here......the innumerable photo sessions,the tears ,the joy.An array of human emotions were displayed outside CHAVARA hall.

HIP HIP HURRAY!!!!!!!SPARTANS..........SPARTANS.........

Spoiled to the core

Its always nice to be pampered and right now, i feel spoiled to the core.Lots of attention has been bestowed upon me for the past few days and ya, i do feel like an important person.All thanks to ma pals who make up ma life.I know its so difficult to live without them and sometimes i can feel the salty waters when, i think about a year from now. We have to move on with our own lives having to take critical decisions all by ourselves ,without having to depend upon people.I'm bonded ,and i can't imagine a situation without ,being close to ma pals.How strange can life get?.People coming in and moving out.Don't ask me about ma future for ,i shatter at its thought.