Frustrated mind

May be because I am born a woman, sacrifices are expected of me. I have figured that though how much ever you are taught about equality by your parents, you end up in a jungle full of prejudice and chauvinism. I see a stark contrast in what is expected from me and what I want for myself. They are not necessarily the same. I don't harbor soft feeling to the righteous woman tag either. A woman may be a good multi-tasker, but it doesn't mean she is happy juggling different roles. Sometimes the norms make me wanna run of to some distant place with no man species to cause ripples in my mental palace. 

I have to let everything go, the ones I strive for, as one by one I have seen my dreams shatter. People want me to become something I cannot fathom myself to be. I am not a domesticated animal who obeys his master and when I dare to question "If me, why not him" they sush me off, saying that's how it's always be. I don't get it! I am tired, high on cetrazine, pulling up my warm saley jacket, wishing if things would change. I see no escape route, and things are meant to be this way.  

This picture has no relevance whatsoever to this topic, but see how the whole scene is so calm and so serene?. Rather than the whale of turbulence hitting ashore, wish my mind was little something like the emotions depicted in this picture.