No tomorrow

Okay!!!!! last few weeks were the best, considering the fact that we enjoyed like there is no tomorrow even during the series,bitched hard,shopped way harder and more importantly went on without usual fights.Its a sea change from the dynamics before and there are things that binds us closer to each other.Its always Together or never but,everyone doesn't seems to understand.The affection is making someone cross over, i may view from a sarcastic angle but ma girlfriends don't.Its like a picture of four friends when one is missing.Ya... learning to accept radical changes in people.I ma self being a static example.Just when i saw the gathering in front of college today (Seniors last day in college) ma heart skipped a beat AnD i found ma self holding ma girlfriends hand.Next time same time we will be standing in their place shedding tears,trying hard to control the emotions and filling up the autographs ya.It will be tough ....3 years we have fought,supported,loved,hated one another.Three people so different coming together to make ma college life the best part of ma life.Thanks gals!!!

I LOVE YOU GUYS!!!!!!!!!

Who stole ma shoes?

Iv been searching all day for ma shoes,the one i was planning to wear to ma friend's sisters wedding.I made a fuss outta ma missing shoes blaming out ma mom for being careless , throwing away ma shoes (actually i was accusing her).Why such a fuss over a stupid shoes?Its for the fact that the shoe was a part of ma life for so long.I was getting frustrated ,"what will i wear the next day?".I went up to ma doggy and said"at least you understand right?".Ma pet lab turned her head sideways catching up whatever i was saying or, my be complaining she must have understood ma difficult position,she stood from the place which she categorised as her area.Ma shoes!!!!!!! it was safely hidden behind MIKKU'S belly all this time .So,who stole ma shoes?:MIKKU off course ma bro said.Wasn't he giving his mysterious devilish smile?.I may never know for who stole ma shoes.

My Fairy Tale

Do i believe in fairy tales?.I never used to but, i do now.Iv ma reason to believe Cinderellas do exist and so do fairy god mothers.The long search for Mr.Right is finally coming to a halt and i have nothing to be worried about, not the usual witches or the cruel step mother.All i wish for is lots of drama and that "HAPPILY EVER AFTER "tag.Everyone out there ,your story is being set and written, all it needs is an event which will lead to sequence of events finally weaving out a story of its own.You may never know that you are the lead character, like me who never realised i was one,until few weeks before.All you need is a sprinkle of imagination to let you life bloom and you have whole life ahead.

The Saga Ends

The MIRROR was supposed to be a reflection of what i am and its duly serving its purpose.The blog gave lots of people an insight into ma world,life of a gal who used to struggle with her identity to life of an evolving women trying to decide her rights and wrongs.The blog was meant to be ma secret little place but,its not anymore.Lots of feed backs from friends and family well,i ought to cut down on the scary stuff i write down over here as ma dad is a regular reader.Well,I'm also happy to say that iv inspired some of ma friends to start blogging for themselves but,i don't see much activities on their site which is virtually dead.People start sharing your world!!.I still flash back to see ma self locking up ma room in frustration and shouting out loud whenever i was sad.Not anymore cause iv found a friend who have the patience to sit by me and console me whole night long:MIRROR!!!!!!Some people consider me as a grandma of blogging as I'm one among the first few who introduced the college the whole wide world of blogging. I believe that ma writing has evolved as i have in these years.Iv never wanted to post the depressing stuff but hey!!!this blog is supposed to a true reflection of what i am.I will be out of the blogging network for few months.The exile is not a self induced one,but ought to have happened in course of time.I'm shifting ma base to somewhere new,open and into a small world of happiness.The world that i hope will change ma life for sure.

End of Chapter1

Three years of college.What have i learned?seems ma brain is dying out for, I'm making same mistakes again and again.Misjudging people,hurting people who loves me ,cracking stupid jokes that no one laughs on, ma list of stupidity never ends.College is not all best part of life its just another chapter that needs to be flipped through until finally u read -*THE END*-.As a matter of fact iv taken fewer notes,flunked life's tests,bunked most important classes.When i view things sarcastic, life gets little better.The pain dilutes,there is no 'ifs' and 'buts'.Iv loved ma life,hated it,played with it but,today I'm helpless.I wanna laugh but,the sound gets choked in ma throat.I wanna cry but,the tears have stopped flowing.Its a state beyond pessimism and depression its a state of self condemnation ,the state where you loose your self respect.I'm nothing but, a living end of the chapter.

Me....

I need to control ma tears,

I need to pray harder,

I need to smile more often,

I need to act smarter,

I need to learn to hide ma tears,

I need to listen closely,

I need to paint ma world,

I just need to be ma self.

Instants

Each day i walk with a heavy heart,

Feelings of joy and sorrow capturing ma imagination at same instant.

What did i miss out?

What have i lost in place of ma gains?

Ma eyes are dry for even the tears have deserted me,

Every time i shed droplets of blood

I have nothing to turn back and look at.

I have lost the battle,

All that's left is ma soul.