Secret Keepers

The first rule in mother-daughter gossips"Never spill out the beans to the men flock"

That's so easy.Why does men have to eavesdrop our conversation?.They are the best secret keepers around or are they?

Last day on one of those mother daughter gossiping session ,ma mother let out something that i found insulting and humiliating.I just wanted to get even with her.Off to Dad ,i went with ma complaint with precisely the same words ma mom used.With his jaws wide open ,Dad scolded mom and left her of with the warning never ever to speak to me like that.I saw strange look on ma mom's face or was she just faking?.After all the drama ,mom came up to me and said"You broke rule no:1 now you are in for some real trouble"."Mom you are saying this within 5 minutes of the reaction time.I'm not scared,with Dad on ma side ,never!!!" i gave her that attitude smile.Of goes one week and everything is back to semi-normal.

On one of those usual family gathering,dad blurts out the girly joke.The act of humiliation on a larger scale,with ma uncles,aunts,cousins hearing the same.Humiliating???ohhh common.Why cant guys keep a secret?.Dad didn't say anything when i mentioned how hurt i was.Even the firebrand can run out of spark at times.

Next time,let alone ma revenge get better of me,I'm not even ready to look out into Dad's face.It was an act of heroism,an act of getting a joke out of something that wasn't remotely funny and that too at ma cost.After all who said guys are good secret keepers??.Next time ladies

Shhhhh......

From ma Heart

Ma relation with ma parents: it cannot be captured in just one word, not even one sentence or paragraph.Sometimes they are the best parents around, supporting, caring , understanding . Sometimes, they don't make any sense at all,scolding for silly reasons, restrictions, warnings, groundings.After all these years,i expect ma parents to be a feedback loop,giving the right advice,telling me whats right and wrong,pointing out ma mistakes.I m bound to accept the fact that i was never a perfect daughter,screaming, shouting ,scoring just average scores,rebellious.Even after all the set backs they loved me unconditionally.I prefer to think they still do.

Last day i had a little conversation with ma mom who said it out openly that Dad don't trust me anymore for, he finds me far too suspicious.I wasn't ready for such a relevation,i still picture ma father as the same person whom i trusted with ma little bicycle.It was actually ma Dad who taught me how to ride one.It was the same person, i trusted with ma future,ma dreams and the fact that he doesn't trust me does make a difference.I'm not the perfect person to be giving a speech on "TRUST".I know but, i expected ma Dad to be more open with me.He may have his own reasons for doubting ma actions but, i think its ma duty to clear the doubts.What pains me is "he is not giving me a chance to explain ma self".I cannot force someones trust on me but, at least i can make ma part clear.

After chat with mom,i had some difficulty in conversing with ma dad.Suddenly i started to realise the dryness in his words,its not filled with love anymore,it felt as if it were some random words out of the mouth of the person whom i loved so much.I don't know what to think or say,its just that there is something short .

Dad,i know you have your own doubts,but please don't hide it deep inside further complicating our relation.You are ma inspiration and i want to make you proud.I won't do anything that will harm your reputation in turn affecting our relation.

"I LOVE YOU DAD"

Sorry

"We trust you"

It sends shivers down ma spine,the very realisation of cheating not only ma soul but, the people around. The pain is immense,still I'm trying to make things happen for good.I know the pain the whole process will cause. But, i have to. I'm sorry.

To S7 AEI,with love

The final semester is here.Just one more year in college and after that ,each one of us will be chasing different dreams.All the fun and frolic will come to an end.There will be only memories left.The class is as usual divided,each one sticking out with people they call"gangmates".I haven't felt much of a change in vibes.It has been the same for the past 3 years.Nothing much to complain as no one is ready to break the comfort bubble,not even me.Iv given up on ma attempts to make everyone feel special.

When will the class stand as united?.It seems people are least bothered about another person' s life.Where does the problem lie?.It is more sensible to curl up inside ones own shell,go to the class with least expectations,copy down the letters drenched in chalk powder,go back home with a heavy heart.All the fake smiles that i have to reply to,all the made up questions.Its sounds horrible to be sitting in midst of bunch of people who doesn't allow you to penetrate through.

All doesn't seem so bad,i have had good times like the munnar trip,3 days trip,arts fest,bunking class.Just one more year.That's what is painful,no matter how ma heart felt.I have shared a good part of ma college life with these people who made me laugh,cry,smile,frown.I walk down the gate of the college with mixed emotions.I will never be able to forget even one of them, because they are part of ma life,engraved into ma heart.

Red Words

Anger is one human emotion that i hate to depict through ma words.Anger takes control of both your brain and heart and the right view gets blurred,words get chocked.All that comes out is hatred and frustration.I want to shout at top of ma voice,vent out the anger but,No i can't.I'm numb and ya i have to go through this phase in ma 4 years of engineering degree.20 years of life have given me lots of patience,patience to deal with ma inner self.This small incident,is just nothing.I'm never good with RED WORDS.

Internet:Beware

Internet has opened up a wide window of opportunities.Mails,blogs,networking sites etc etc...and we thank God everyday for being alive in the Internet era.Well, some people have taken the liberty ,freedom to surf to the next level-CYBER CRIMES

Hacking,morphing,viruses,cracking.... u name it ,the cyber world has it.Was so busy last day that i forgot to switch off ma laptop.When i returned the chat window was open.

I LOVE CRAZY FROG MAN:#@#@#$

ME:HUH????

This guy is supposed to be ma brother and i know ma brother would never do such a thing for, he is driven by values.Must have been some of his friends who love messing around in the school computer lab.As a sister it was ma duty to warn him.I forgot about the incident .That very evening he showed me the hate site on a famous social networking site dedicated in his name.Obviously one thing was clear:He didn't have much of a fan base owing to his studious,indifferent,gal friendly nature.

Yesterday i decided to put up the issue in the family gathering.So how did his gmail account get cracked?.Ma stupid brother told off proudly"6 of ma friends know ma id and password".Dumbo!!!.We were in for a bigger shock as we scanned through his chat records,lots of foul language has been used against people,definitely not Sank but,someone out there trying to sabotage his reputation.

What can be done against such offenders?.Is the cyber crime act strong enough to punish the offenders?.What about the victim,who loses his name,friends,reputation just through the act of another person who doesn't have any idea how people's lives get shattered through their actions.

Insane

What to write on?. There is nothing exciting happening in ma life.All i have been doing on the rather dull day is to run up and down the stairs,with mom calling me down every 5 minutes.For what you may wonder?.For lame reasons. Here are some:

1: To Check if she has got any calls

Her mob is in ringing mode,if she gets any call i will surely get to know.Still, she wants me to go down and check

2: To See if the Dog is sleeping

Poor Doggy,why do i have to go and disturb her for the sake of it?.

3:To check if the clothes that are left outside to dry is under shade or not

I can't go and ask Mr.Sun to change his position can i?

What conclusion can one draw from the above said reasons.I don't know why but,mom hates me ,sitting without any job.Just wish i could run off to some calmer place to cool ma brains.