hey...dere ppl...check out these amazing picz.... they are some cool pencil drawingz......

sh.......common....life is so.....boring......so much to do....so...much work out...december is the month when we will have to face with lab exams....phew!!!!!!!!waz........with theory exams....im screwed....

.....A.....
Why do i always have 2 listen 2 what ma parents have 2 say????live risk free life like the ones that they have lived??why should i have to be first in the class when i know im tallented???why do i have 2 keep quiet during an argument with them???why do i have to dress the way they want???why do i have to fear tha gods...when i know fear is not a solution..why do i have to keep ma voice down????why cant i hang around with friendz..even if its late..why cant i bunk classes and go 4 a movie???why should i eat vegetables..even if i hate it..why cant i get ma upper ears pierced....why do i have to watch the stupid tearful soaps.......why cant i keep ma room untidy...why cant i stick posters on ma wall???why cant i go to college on ma bike???shee..these are the questions i wanna ask ma parents..but dont have courage to do so...

DEEP BLUE SEA AND THE FERRY RIDE
willingdon island ,the only man made island in kerala...is also india's finnest ports.i stay near the sea still,the images that i have are not pleasent ones..whenever i look at the sea it reminds me of the big ugly shark of "deep blue sea"usually i go to ma college in public transport...but today i thought to differ..may be a ride in the ferry will help in sheding the fear ...hah i went to the harbour only to realise that the ferry was 10 minutes late...watever...after about 20 minutes the ferry arrived....hah finally...when we reached almost half the ferry came to a halt...a.....?????when some of ma fellow passengers told me that the engine was not working properly...hah....again after 30 minutes another ferry arrived guiding the first one to land .land....finally....the journey which usually takes me about 25 minutes took almost an hourand a half....gosh...man..ferry rides...such a ....

POST DEPRESSION
back to the world of maniacs....time after time iv been suffering from the same syndrome...something thats part of ma life..."DEPRESSION"cant blame anyone..most of the time i hide ma persona onto myself without opening up,keeping all the worries to myself..once into its grip i tend to hurt maself..accusing the world of being bad to me...not even ma friendz seems to know ma issues..whenever i keep ma head low..becoming quite ,everyone seems to think its part of growing up..all ma rage and accusations go straight to ma parents heart...iv witnessed two types of depression one being hiding onto onself other being letting the anger take control of oneself...earlier i used to hide from anyything and everything nowdays i let loose all ma emotions..whatever be the situation..i tend to care less about the people around me..ma parents for instance..doesnt react to ma violent behavior..post depression period is totally a traumatic one...the feeling of pain that one causes seems to come back haunting the consiousness..i dont seem to understand why..the people around me doesnt react...hasnt been a very good week anyway...semestor is coming to an end ..exams fast approaching..seems like iv to get over the feeling of lonliness somehow..

CRAZY WORLD....
hey...wazz with people????around me, i have so many people...advicing ,asking me not to do this, do that...im sick of this baby sitting thing...people i know ,treat me like a small kid...for this reason im constantly fighing with ma buddies, silly rite.....heh...may be im childish afterall...so ma classes are not going well ,trying hard to figure out something that will help me ...in....got to see what real life is really like...vish ,ma friend has started with a habbit lately...trying hard to make me mad..strange isnt it....i cant say anything back.. im ice cool..doesnt get mad at anyone...hah exept a few .....

"KERALA" GODS OWN COUNTRY.......

WAZ WITH THE AMERICANS????
It has always been the habit of Americans to show their money and muscle power to the rest of the world...death sentence awarded to Saddam was just another episode in the saga written solely by the bully americans and their counterparts..UN is just another puppet in the hands of americans...AMERICANS......down with their policies..iraqies ,afghan people (women and children including),all are victims of american cruelity...all the drama involved in the war with iraq was an american ploy to capture the vast oil reserves of the east....weapons of mass destruction?????hah.....think they can fool the rest of the world...no ways.....people of america have started realising the truth i suppose....one thing that they fail to realise is that developing countries mostly west and east asian countries hate the very americaness involved ....the hate wave is fast spreading to even europe....recent terrorist attaks are living proof for this testimony....millions of people from both sides have shed their lives for satisfying bush and cos...vested interests...people of america wake up to a new begining...raise your voice against the cruelity.....

WAY OF LIFE
a...feels so odd..to look back and to see everything so blured.life has become so..materialistic...no one cares about their fellow beings...all what one wants is personal glory and achivements..they dont care about the people they hurt during the process...i cant seem to understand when ma friendz.. say 'ITS ONE BIG MEAN WORLD'when you start thinking about the pro's and cons of helping others you really start to wonder...what is the point of helping when you can't expect anything in return...i do ma bit of stuff when it comes to helping people...but whatever experiences that i received is not positive...nowadays i tend to be little more selfish..think about maself before anyone else...i know its not a positive attitude but still...humanity and love is fast dissapearing from the face of earth..when u rip off the mask worn by people ,all you see is emptiness,shallowness...its time to change the way of life....way of life...

a...feels like heaven...back home after a tiresome day at college..lot of people complained to me that i look sulky 2 day...i donno why...ma class was supposed 2 go for a tour this saturday but our HOD opposed the move and now all of us are planning a campaign..i belive that tours are necessary..for students like us.its a time when we can actually sit back and relax..have a great time off with friendz..otherwise everyday is like a borin day..havent u ppl heard ALL WORK AND NO PLAY MAKES JACK A DULL BOY me and ma friendz are also in such a situation..lets wait and watch..

LIFE.......
Its scary... 2 see ma life floating off aimlessly.Alas!!4 a person like me,whose effort qoutient is equivalent to rate of persuation its a scary situation..i can't keep on rooted to earth 4 long..most of ma friendz..have surpassed all records &me????still trying to figure out what to do with ma life...may be time can give me a new lease of life..or may be not.Sometimes i feel that people around me are so different so..vibrant.Im the only black and white character around...a...iv tried walking through the path travelled by many only 2 realise that"thats not what i want..."may be the world will turn around some day..may be.. 'OPAL'will turn into a gal born to realise her dreams...still wondering whether it will remain a dream or what...

LOVE...
ha..what to say...iv never fallen in love so im not quite an expert on this topic still...right now ma friend was complaining about some guy..wanna hear why???its because she doesnt know what she has got into..she feels its just friendship but i dont think so..maybe a stage little ahead of that..may be the blossoming stage..phew..its such a pain ..i donno..people say its kinda wierd.. when u fall in love..u forget whats happening around you..you think,sleep and talk about that particular person...ha..you start to cherish each word uttered ...i had ma own set of crushes but all ma feelings are for celebrities...its..so cool right ..wanna hear the name of ma latest crush...'ANDERSON' of english cricket team....i had a chance to meet with him the last time he toured India..a cool guy..maybe i will fall in love after sometime may be..its a long wait man ..right now me and anderson in our own dream world...adieus.....

CHECKMATE
Its all smithered in black and white
in the game of life,
64 squres and you sit with a kingdom
at hand.
Rooks,Bishops and Queen
they all play their parts in this puppet
world.
The game may mould out champions
but the real champion is he who survives
the war of life.
One wrong move and you are trapped
in the enemie's hand,
waiting to be slaughtered.
The figures on the board kill and kill,
all thats left is nothing but,will
to reach the enemie's den.
Move forward, play your game untill u are
trapped by checkmate
and here the game ends
for ever...

Its all human to keep smiling at the time of adversities.Ha!believe me life is not that rosy..if one doesnt speak out the problems buried deep within then ,one day the problem will consume u..the void deep within ma heart is my current problem ..sometimes i get so frustrated that i fail to see the world beyond the four boundaries of ma wall..I view the world from ma comfort zone..cursing all the bad things around..Not even once have i attempted to try to make a differnce of ma own..I know that its almost impossible to change the world in one week..the way i dream..i am ashamed of the hollowness in ma words..what can an 18 year old do all by herself???do i have the right to question the existing system..All i can do is to believe that im also a part of the society..that never needs to b questioned..or for the time being let the fire deep within me rest in peace...

ha!ha!ha!ma friendz..from school came in the last day..had a gala time with ma friendz..swaran and rahul came in..we had lots of sweets..cause its diwali..festival of lights..gozziping is one of our all time best thing...ooh la la ..cant believe those people hid so many things from me 4 all these years...ha!! i couldnt believe all those gwashy stories that they told me but they ...ma having lots of fun ..basically cause im having 4 days holidays..let me enjoy ..while u people rock..

a...saved at last... i scored A in all subjects of my 3rd semester exam..but the bad news is i fought with my buddy 2day...wanna know the reason?he tld that i speak a lot...pretty lame excuse i know..but what 2 do im kinda sensitive gal..m...what else..hey..2day was nothing special..only that i gotta learn something new ...all guys do behave strange at times...even they cant understand what they mean..phew..i need 2 address some serious issues...take some decisions..i need 2 change ma working style cause iv become a lazy bone nowadays..need 2 work hard otherwise im sure gonna flunk 4 the next exams...

hiya ppl its the second time i am on net...its almost dinner time at ma home..typicall kerala dishes like avial-a mixed vegetable curry,fish fried in plantain leaf,sambar,prawns,its smell so... good aha i never help ma mama in kitchen...am her sweety..sort of...kerala breakfast consists of steamed items like appam,idiappam,idli...lunch is usually heavy with 8 or 9 curries served in plantain leaf with steaming hot rice..usually its very spicy...keralites use lots of spices like cardamom,cinnamon etc... evening ends with tea..dinner ends with payasam a sweet dish ...

back 2 basics....college life is turning out 2 b a boring one.no play and all work..are colleges meant 2 b like this????classes start around 8:30.one hour break in between.7 periods in all with no periods free..dont expect empty classrooms..classrooms are always full...lectures ,presentations,talks,blah..blah..blah...coffee joint is the only place around the college where u can hang around with ur friendz.. without any tensions and worries..ah...almost forgot about college canteen..paradise on earth ,where u can get anything from traditional kerala meal 2 tasty hamburgers..u can always see the canteen full even during holidays...classes get over by 4:30.after that all of us friendz..hang 2gether near the square...most of us luv watching the lovers fight, teasing juniors...hah college...its so..monotonous..so..same...i reach back home by 6..next day its the same cycle..is this what people call life????no flavour..noenergy...noparty...no lifeee...monday 2 friday..hah..typicall..kerala engineering college.....