THE LAST BUDHA....

Budha-epitome of peace......the culture that was lost long before.The last budha is not a term to represent an individual but,a sysem -THE APEX COURT OF INDIA-SUPREME COURT ....Laws and lawmakers are not preachers of peace themselves because wherever there is an unrest the matter comes before the court....if the word peace was within each one of us the court would almost become extinct..indian judiciary is represented by a blindfolded lady holdin a balance in her handin in turn representin "JUSTICE TO ALL" earlier on judiciary was a silent system dancin to the tunes of pied pipers of politics.Nowadays the table has turned on.Each and every event across the nation comes under the scanner of judicial system.True to be said as a young indian i belive in the judiciary more than what i belive in politics and the false promises associated with it..Bravo!!!!!to the only law abidin system in india on their verdicts and observation on the reservation,bofors,jessica murder n gujarat riots cases.Law don't differntiate between religion nor caste.The long hands of law has become nightmares to many who in turn is tryin head over heels to curb the supreme power....comin out openly critisisin the decisions...how sad...budha is being torn apart untill there is no last budha alive....

a generation awakens

The RANG DE BASANTHI Shot ...thanx 2 shaggy...this pic was taken on 31st...on our trip to munnar......the pic is inspired largely by the pic in the bollywood flick of the same name....india's official entry into this year's oscars...(dn' make it into the top 5)-:)well the catch phrase of the movie is "A GENERATION AWAKENS"The story revolves around 5 graduate students in delhi university....who feels that the past is not what one should be proud of...they represent an entire generation of indian urban dudes n dudesses who likes to detatch from the rich past cultural heritage of india ....a generation interested more in discotheqes n junk food...an english film maker named sue...inspired by her grandfather's(officer in british indian army) account of indian freedom struggle decides to make a documentary...her search for fresh faces lands her up in midst of these 5 students....the story evolves.....it takes a U turn when one of their friend's fiannce(indian airforce pilot) dies in an accident...what follows is a struggle....the 5 students after realisin the worth of their freedom decides to rebel against the government...for not aknowledgin their role in the disaster(aircrafts being maintained by parts of poor quality)after realisin the fact that peace is not an answer they decides to kill the defense minister...the 5 students die in an encounter......only to ignite the hearts of million of youth in the country....the capital saw similar protests by medical students when government deciced to reserve 50%seats...for not so poor people...in elite institutions...cuttin short the seats meant for deserved...the students took out into the streets....finally government had to withdraw its contreversial move....this is what its meant by awakenin of a generation......

GOOD BYE.....

GOOD BYE.....

hey....long time....n life has taken a new unexpected turn.....guess what????a new person to make ma already miserable life much worse......smi has backed out....on ME......She feels im bossy,irritatin n she can no longer adjust alongside me....what a joke......When i say i don't belive in relationships people laugh.... critisising ma attitude.....now when they see the situation im in..... n ask...."why are you not feelin bad even after your best friend backed out on you" i juzz say......ivn't belived in this relation either....came in handy.....ma theory.....common i don't have time to shed tears...time won't wait for me.....smi....im throwing you out of ma life.....starting it all afresh.....NEW LIFE...NEW CHARACTERS....NEW PAGES.....

fuzzy logic......

itz so funny to see how people take issues so seriously......tearing down the relationships....one of ma friend n me are not great buddies anymore as we used to be....both of us dont care about the whole issue....people especially...ma friend's friend seems to be more concerned....refusing to co-operate showing the kinda of complete anguish on the face.....i wonder....what does he have to do with ma issue????all what hes doin is making a big fuss out of it....it doesn't do any good to anyone it isn't helpful in solving the issue...infact it is creating a kind of unrest among both of us....who were friends in the past....let others live by their own rule....why bother????why care to peep into others world....don't ever try to force a person to be what you want him/her to be ...alwayz respect individuality.....FUzzy logic.....or may be FUzz without logic.....

BREAKDOWN REGION.......
Give me a break!!!!.....shoo....LIFE......you come in full circle don't you....right now im sandwiched between yet another P-N-P junction...can't move in either way...trapped in a one way.....conjested....tired....n stretched to the breaking point.....i try to be as flexible as possible ...still its not that easy ,allowing yorself to be manipulated...i thought playing basketball was tough...lol)-:living out life is much more tougher.....

WILLINGDON ISLAND
don't tell me... iv to go through it all again.... praisin willingdon island....sheesh....i feel like sreamin "get a life" feelin bored you know....life is much better in here don't mention the crowded ernakulam town...rather than sittin at home...sippin the hot tea....in the comfort zone....i like the heat of the outdoors fightin with the cold windz ...beatin the mercury......i stay near the sea side area...still feels so warmed up ...so dry.....ought to see the park near the sea...awesome.... cool breeze,ships sailin by,birdz back to their nest after gruellsome day...its refreshin....n indoors..humid get ready to wet yourdress its sweatin time...don't forget to mention the mosquito attack....big ones suckin your blood...singin out wierd songz...yuck....the traffic to this part of the city is less so ,you won't feel like you are in city...no pollution...no power cuts.....no maddenin crowd...hey...don't think of buyin a house in here cause..the entire place is government owned....no place 4 outsiders....lol)-:

WHY???
Bad.....definitely bad....whenever i keep myself busy,fuming about ma lack of time...it's bad news.....im hurt....i try to burn up all ma energy n focus just to get out of the akward situation....hm)-:This time it was smijas who noticed"you are tired"she said patting on ma shoulder....i knew it!!!!!time to go back to square 1:analyze...right after college i did stand in front of the mirror ....staring at maself...no....i can't stand there seeing maself....and its not doing any good...it's making me feel sick...Gottcha....turn on the laptop...read blogs!!!!think its helping...and...lol)-:i understand now......."INFERIORITY COMPLEX"........i have that mechanism inbuilt but this time it has taken it has taken its toll.....how can i make myself feel good...That's where the mob coes i....who ever is thecreator...thanx!!!!i rang up ma old friendz...from school....its helping....ate some crunchies in between 'n' now blogging...Everything in perfect order...."why a i feeling low????"shouldn't be.....why am i letting the heart take control over the brain????i shouldn't allow it....Back to 19...ripping your personility does help.....a good sleep and i will be back on track...raring to go...fasterthan before....

MAKING FRIENDS

What is the criteria of makin friends????hm(-:subject to ponder about...its not that i follow them everytime...still......

• LOOKS.....(poor souls out there....its true lol)-:beauty or no friends..)
• INTELLIGENCE????(not the googles wearing type though)
• FAITHFULNESS
• COMPACTIBILITY
• ATTITUDE
• STYLE????
• HELPING,CARING 'N' UNDERSTANDING

If put into a tight spot.......i will be happy choosing ma friends based on the 3,4 n 5th criteria....it's annoying at times to see people falling for the most popular guy or gal in the college....can't blame them...is all humane....neva.....don't get bitten by the beauty n intelligence bug.... next time you choose friends"YOU CAN GO WRONG"

DAD!!!!!
Dad waz in charge of the house today as mama had to go to the work early....its really annoying when dad is around.....he just screams out at every instant"don't do that don't do this"who's bothered....dad made me clean the dishes....yuk!!!!when mom is around she does all the cleaning work...he even tried his hand in cooking.....he made somethin called "thoran"looked like burnt cabbage....im better off with ma potato chips....he d n't even take me to visit grandma..dad asked me to baby sit ma (DAD IN UNIFORM:HE'S AN INDIAN CUSTOMS OFFICER)younger brother...so uncool!!!\now...that dad is gone....me n bro are havin a great time....dirtyin the house......when dad n mom comes back they will be in for a shock....lol!!!can't wait to see the expression on their face.....

IT'S OVER......
The much feared SSD is over....what a relief.....but...xam wasn't that easy...especially the B part...12 marks questions all twisted to the core....again.....ma memory cheated me...forgot..the derivation of contact potential.....at times when i need memory the most it vanishes off from sight....gosH!!!!!!as expected it was easy for SMI.....i knew that...no magic balls required to predict that....well the next xam is on 7th that too...electronics circuit...isnt as difficult as SSD...but,for the last internal xam i scored a...B-.....its bad i know.... still.... everyone scored the same..... hey....i ought to get a trophy....wanna know why????cause yesterday i kept awake untill...3a.m.....go up at 5....i killed ma beauty sleep for SSD...hate IT!!!!

RACISM
Last week the Indian press carried full length news on bullying of SHILPA SHETTY by the other housemates in the BIG BROTHER CHANNEL 4call it a frantic attempt by a fading star to regain her lost glory or call it the WEST'S attitude towards the EAST,shilpa managed to create a few ripples in the international arena...RACISM exist in any civilised ociety...even india is not free from this virus...racism exist within Indian bondaries..one may wonder...classification based on skin colour or what...na....the tag here is"BY THE PEOPLE 4 THE PEOPLE"India is divided into 4 zones namely north,south eastn west each with its lifestyle n even gods i hail from south comprising of kerala,thamilnadu,karnataka n andhrapradesh.i belong to malayalee community which boasts of highest literary rate in India(98%)be it aerospace,IT parks... famed IIT and IISC....whatever be the advances made by the south the people..the north zone fails to recognise it..during my short stint with the north (did ma schooling there)i came into terms with racism within India.even though ma name doesn't sound southish ,ma accent does..it did fetch me a new name..."MADRASI" the north people know only one class of south people..they poke fun of your dialect,hair colour ( jet black hair)they even think south people eat dosa(food item)365 a year...their attitude towards south is not a hostile one so is their attitude towards other zones .....when racism exist within india what right do Indians(including me)have,to question the west's attitude towards he east????(at least the skin colour differnce is more pedominant than the difference between south n north)racism cannot be tamed ..even law is not strong enough to dig its teeth into this ugly piece of junk well we gotta...live...with it ,over it n even beat it..

NIGHTMARE NAMED SOLID STATE DEVICES...
feeling quite left out......needs someone to speak to.......it is more of a desperate ..situation....smi's(ma friend) is racking her brains over electrical.....examz which will be held on tuesde.....m....i don think there is anything to be so.. scared of...electrical..is so simple as compared to the dreadfull ssd(solid sate devices) ....haven't attended any of the ssd classes properly...m....our professor..a highly wiseman of his degree did explain almost everything but......na....had to go through his (or it can be called MY) notes more than 10 times to understand the very first line....smi is 2...good in ssd.....she always scores good marks....to ma horror iv realised that i don't have the notes of first two chapters namely....diodes n basic fundamentals....m...i was busy sleepin then....m...tell u people somethin...from experience...sit in the front row wearing your spectacles....so that your professor won't catch you napping....he!!!he!!!he!!!!a....i did get 7 days off before..electical...i wasting that off....next examz is ssd..only 2 days off...i tried to..catch up with ssd...na...felt like a monster right out of ma nightmares....even ma friend appu is out of town.....can't ask him for help either...hey...on 2nd i will have to face...the truth.....as far as the saying from MAHABHARATHA goes...."you are the master of your own actions"low marks are what you get for wasting away your time....

IRONY IN HUMAN RELATIONSHIPS
PART -2
Last day as i was jolting ma way to the examination hall trying to remember greens theorem one of ma ex- classmate stoped me...."Here comes the star" she announced...i tried to reason with her so as why she thinks so????"aha!!!!you seem innocent you idiot "she said....as a matter of fact i did understand what the topic was but......didnt dare to open ma mouth.....2 days back one of ma very close friend eloped with a guy she met via chatting.....it came as a shock to many of us as she put us in the dark throughout....none of us had slightest idea on what was going on....the last day i met her was 2 days before, the incident at college....she didnt show any signs nor did she mention anything.....the entire incident came as a surprise to many as she was one among the toppers in the class....what to say?????people...are making up new stories, with her best friends including me.... playing a part in the foul game....even her parents think that we are partly to be blamed.....the story doesnt end here ...as the police couldn't trace her yet...hope she would surface some day....iv prepared some questions which she will have to answer.....cause...she cheated on us....broke our trust...broke all those peoples heart that loved her...her parents who looked after her for 19 years...she didnt even think about those two...she backed them out for A person she met just two years ago...ANOTHER IRONY IN HUMAN RELATIONSHIP!!!!!!!

sees...day i n day out...itz gettin tough....now that people have become so...nosy that itz impossible to sigh even....all people wanna know are the bad things
happening in others life...how cruel....in with the people who loves to see you hurt...had enough of this!!!!!the next time someone comes over n asks aboutwhat the real story is...im not goin to keep that smiling mask intact...im just gonna burst off.......im not the one liable for all he misfortunes......hah!!!!let people say whatever they want im not gonna be a part of the scheme....

IRONY IN HUMAN RELATIONSHIPS.....
For the last few weeks iv been a mere spectator to the irony in human relationships... every time i open ma mouth to react, im pulled back by the darker side ......i was struck down by the fact that people can change in moments time....strange but, yes true....Anu ,ma friend started behaving strange...all of a sudden problems seemed to creep, out of nowhere...on a fine day she came upto me with a new issue... she declared in front of the whole class that she hates being a black birdie...all of us started wondering...why a sudden change of mind after one year?????i never pick up ma friends based on looks,intelligence or money...for me friends are like ones own reflection an integral part of ma life....the next day i saw her in the midst of some white birdies...one week later...as an acceptable member of both the flocks... a white birdie complained..."she's annoying"...poor thing....she doesnt understand the mean world out there...as far as ma friends are concerned...they are not ready to welcome her back...im torn between ma commitment n ma pride.....

hey...dere ppl...check out these amazing picz.... they are some cool pencil drawingz......

sh.......common....life is so.....boring......so much to do....so...much work out...december is the month when we will have to face with lab exams....phew!!!!!!!!waz........with theory exams....im screwed....

.....A.....
Why do i always have 2 listen 2 what ma parents have 2 say????live risk free life like the ones that they have lived??why should i have to be first in the class when i know im tallented???why do i have 2 keep quiet during an argument with them???why do i have to dress the way they want???why do i have to fear tha gods...when i know fear is not a solution..why do i have to keep ma voice down????why cant i hang around with friendz..even if its late..why cant i bunk classes and go 4 a movie???why should i eat vegetables..even if i hate it..why cant i get ma upper ears pierced....why do i have to watch the stupid tearful soaps.......why cant i keep ma room untidy...why cant i stick posters on ma wall???why cant i go to college on ma bike???shee..these are the questions i wanna ask ma parents..but dont have courage to do so...