DEEP BLUE SEA AND THE FERRY RIDE
willingdon island ,the only man made island in kerala...is also india's finnest ports.i stay near the sea still,the images that i have are not pleasent ones..whenever i look at the sea it reminds me of the big ugly shark of "deep blue sea"usually i go to ma college in public transport...but today i thought to differ..may be a ride in the ferry will help in sheding the fear ...hah i went to the harbour only to realise that the ferry was 10 minutes late...watever...after about 20 minutes the ferry arrived....hah finally...when we reached almost half the ferry came to a halt...a.....?????when some of ma fellow passengers told me that the engine was not working properly...hah....again after 30 minutes another ferry arrived guiding the first one to land .land....finally....the journey which usually takes me about 25 minutes took almost an hourand a half....gosh...man..ferry rides...such a ....

POST DEPRESSION
back to the world of maniacs....time after time iv been suffering from the same syndrome...something thats part of ma life..."DEPRESSION"cant blame anyone..most of the time i hide ma persona onto myself without opening up,keeping all the worries to myself..once into its grip i tend to hurt maself..accusing the world of being bad to me...not even ma friendz seems to know ma issues..whenever i keep ma head low..becoming quite ,everyone seems to think its part of growing up..all ma rage and accusations go straight to ma parents heart...iv witnessed two types of depression one being hiding onto onself other being letting the anger take control of oneself...earlier i used to hide from anyything and everything nowdays i let loose all ma emotions..whatever be the situation..i tend to care less about the people around me..ma parents for instance..doesnt react to ma violent behavior..post depression period is totally a traumatic one...the feeling of pain that one causes seems to come back haunting the consiousness..i dont seem to understand why..the people around me doesnt react...hasnt been a very good week anyway...semestor is coming to an end ..exams fast approaching..seems like iv to get over the feeling of lonliness somehow..

CRAZY WORLD....
hey...wazz with people????around me, i have so many people...advicing ,asking me not to do this, do that...im sick of this baby sitting thing...people i know ,treat me like a small kid...for this reason im constantly fighing with ma buddies, silly rite.....heh...may be im childish afterall...so ma classes are not going well ,trying hard to figure out something that will help me ...in....got to see what real life is really like...vish ,ma friend has started with a habbit lately...trying hard to make me mad..strange isnt it....i cant say anything back.. im ice cool..doesnt get mad at anyone...hah exept a few .....

"KERALA" GODS OWN COUNTRY.......

WAZ WITH THE AMERICANS????
It has always been the habit of Americans to show their money and muscle power to the rest of the world...death sentence awarded to Saddam was just another episode in the saga written solely by the bully americans and their counterparts..UN is just another puppet in the hands of americans...AMERICANS......down with their policies..iraqies ,afghan people (women and children including),all are victims of american cruelity...all the drama involved in the war with iraq was an american ploy to capture the vast oil reserves of the east....weapons of mass destruction?????hah.....think they can fool the rest of the world...no ways.....people of america have started realising the truth i suppose....one thing that they fail to realise is that developing countries mostly west and east asian countries hate the very americaness involved ....the hate wave is fast spreading to even europe....recent terrorist attaks are living proof for this testimony....millions of people from both sides have shed their lives for satisfying bush and cos...vested interests...people of america wake up to a new begining...raise your voice against the cruelity.....

WAY OF LIFE
a...feels so odd..to look back and to see everything so blured.life has become so..materialistic...no one cares about their fellow beings...all what one wants is personal glory and achivements..they dont care about the people they hurt during the process...i cant seem to understand when ma friendz.. say 'ITS ONE BIG MEAN WORLD'when you start thinking about the pro's and cons of helping others you really start to wonder...what is the point of helping when you can't expect anything in return...i do ma bit of stuff when it comes to helping people...but whatever experiences that i received is not positive...nowadays i tend to be little more selfish..think about maself before anyone else...i know its not a positive attitude but still...humanity and love is fast dissapearing from the face of earth..when u rip off the mask worn by people ,all you see is emptiness,shallowness...its time to change the way of life....way of life...

a...feels like heaven...back home after a tiresome day at college..lot of people complained to me that i look sulky 2 day...i donno why...ma class was supposed 2 go for a tour this saturday but our HOD opposed the move and now all of us are planning a campaign..i belive that tours are necessary..for students like us.its a time when we can actually sit back and relax..have a great time off with friendz..otherwise everyday is like a borin day..havent u ppl heard ALL WORK AND NO PLAY MAKES JACK A DULL BOY me and ma friendz are also in such a situation..lets wait and watch..