A point will come, when neither your satisfied professionally nor personally. The high price of loosing the fine balancing thread is what I am paying right now and that too with my life. My head has been so bruised by the happenings around that I would want to go somewhere far far away, and dump all my sorrows. Life is not easy, nor did I expect it to be, but the circumstances for survival is becoming grim. There comes a point in everyone's life, where they feel "enough is enough". I am threading through that line. Somewhere deep within I know that quitting is definitely not one of my traits and going through the immense pressure every single day, without a helping hand is also not one of my finest traits.
Deep exhale and move on, but where to? certainly your are playing with my sensitive side, certainly you are wounding my pride, certainly I would love to disappear into thin air.
Its all becoming too hard to handle, too difficult to understand, too fogy to see past. Life this year was at an all time low. The tears and the random bouts of sadness engulfing me and turning my heart all black, I watched myself being consumed by pain and the saddest part?. I couldn't do anything about it. For once I held on to the rope that I believed would be my salvation rope, but alas only fools believe in miracles. I am drowning in the pit of black sand, trying desperately to get out, only to feel my legs being vigorously pulled back in.
