mE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Little annoyin.......i always get the upright slap on ma face for "NOT TRUSTIN PEOPLE".........ma parentz n friendz do complain.............why goin on givin people that look..........hm)-:well its always on the safer side if u add a little element of suspicion............but,everythin beyond a breakin point is bad..........well i had ma share of good luck n bad luck 4 that kicky attitude of mine............well always on the lookout for reasons............people (team leaders) do say "opal awesome team spirit ya......"but, i really doubt............iv always had ma Friends screamin" u ain't gonna change..........stop askin the same question"well time to move on.............change....after all "CHANGE IZ DA SPICE OF LIFE"

connection of umbilical chord

May be because of deviation from ma usual attitude of "IM THE BOSS" to a more sober one of "LEAVE ME ALONE", I could see the tiny dot of suspicion in ma mama's eyes. As i started countin time sittin at ma desk.............. when I hit exact 20 I saw ma mom standin near ma desk. "wazz with your life" she asked. "Nothin" I said with the arrogance of a teenager. I could see on her face the strain of the mother of a 19 year old. She kept on naggin me for 30 min ............then finally for ma own peace of mind I said "havin a fall out with friend" .Mama's strained expression turned into a more relaxin one. She started narratin her own college days..........Its amazin how ma mom weaves her own story hidin a solution deep inside. She knows that givin an advice to a teenager like me is like tellin me not to even listen.............Instead of directly tellin she let me know that if the solution worked for her it may work for me 2...........True i fell into her trap.....may be its her experience with life that does the trick. I decided to carry out the same test on dad . If ma mom could figure out whats wrong with me surely dad will too.................dad saw ma sober expression n put in "place your bets who will win today's match??"

Im sure ma mom caught me starin with ma mouth wide open.......
Suppose thats the main difference between moms n dads. Whereas moms get involved in their children's day to day life dad's are more concerned about providin materialistic support to their kids.
that what they call
"connection of umbilical chord"

THE PROCESS....................

Has gone through the process of mendin mannier times n after each washout i try assuring maself that i won't have to go through the process next time n within days i find maself suffocated by advices.Each time the reason is same but, the root is different. Am i puttin maself through it??? or is it another teachin by life???? . Donno.........the most difficult one to mend are broken friendships. No matter how hard you try .....a crack does remain. How to deal with problems of opposite nature?????????? like jealousy n loyalty..........its difficult being on opposite sides cause it may force you to believe that your earlier decisions were wrong.Its easy suggestin but difficult being in the spotlight.So,advices from all corners will confuse one more."TO BE OR NOT TO BE" a frequented question..........so frequented that one stumbles on such seemingly simple one............Process of healin is a long one.........Let time play the surgeon n stitch ma wounds with new friendships................

picZ...............

These are some picz that capture the beauty n grace of munnar (kerala,India)..............these were taken durin our class trip..............

wheel..............

Nothin left to write............no words,no emotions,no complaints,no excuses..............whats left is the desire to suceed...........it may be too..........early for a prediction........but as i know ma self the burnin fire will grow cold in few days.............its the startin point enthusiasm that keeps the wheel rotatin..................hope it does for the entire semester................

work things out..............

Sometimes its so difficult to understand your best of bests friends.................standin in front of them tryin to put through a coversation................some stories end even before it starts to blossom................when your friend go through a bad phase you are there helpin them with the tissue..............when you face a similar situation you expect if not a tissue atleast a comfortin sound,advice................but at times the action taken to bring comfort n ease pain can bring out a negatin effect puttin even your friendship at stake.............all you think at that point is" is this ma friend"..........everyone has hidden streak of black,hues n grays that radiate at most difficult of times...............most of the times the friendship surives.............sometimes it topples off like a sand castle...............as ma mama puts in "no one can understand one another 100%"..............ya human behaviour is so unpredictable ................after 1 week you may laugh of the entire point of argument over a cup of coffee.................or the friction may continue.................next week despite ma busy schedule iv to do some weldin work................broken friendship.............work things out............arrive on an inference......................after all "LIFE IS SHORT"

computer monster............

Today the classes started n as usuall borin.................i went on rotatin ma head from right to left watchin ma professor move from one corner to other..................the prospects of the 5th semester subject aren't much to chear about either............industrial instrumentation, LIC, computer architecture n organisation, power electronics, maths n transducers..............programmin is ma biggest weakness...............i get confused like a child lost in the crowd when ma programm doesn't work............i have to take rounds to get ma errors sorted.................when ma marks in all theory based subjects give others a run for their money.............i keep maself barely safe to escape the wrath of computer gods...........iv alwayz feared"if i cann even programm in C what am i gonna do???" .......even though ma field of specialisation is instrumentation..................iv to know the basics right????????............god save me please.............

college.....

[ma college in the pic]

Iv been thinkin for the past few days the content ...........struck by the question "what to write?" tuesday ma 5th sem is gonna start................have been enjoyin every second ofthe 30 days holiday..............now back to the same old routine of "no one cares about no one else"...............inside the clssroom you are of your own .........no one will come n enquire about the days weather.......life will get complicated within 8.30 am-4.30 pm........................what can you expect when there is only 3 months left for the university?????well have to suffer every moment i sit in the hall listenin to "it doesn't make any sense"...............mhm)-:its all in the brain..........ability to win over your fears..............it ain't easy n i donn expect it to be................whatever is in store for me this semester im all set to face it.................