Tight walk.......

When the people you hold so close behaves like strangers,trying to avoid you for a reason that's way beyond your control that's when thing get to the bottom of the heart.People want me to speak,but one thing they fail to understand that there is no room for conversation if the person on the other side is not ready to open up.It was always a dream for 4 of us to get placed in the same company but,as luck would have it i got placed in a reputed firm whereas 3 of ma pals are yet to strike gold.The do's n dont's iv been listening to from other pals and also from parents .I really want to help them out but, ma actions can be interpreted in a way that will lead to further complication.The phone conversations are short and to the point. I never feel the same old warmth and affection, the words sounds as if being forced upon.All i can do right now is to pray.

Hate being ME!!!!!!!

Iv being logging for some change in the not so perfect life of mine.And finally i found the perfect way:Go in and get a crazy hairdo.Iv searched whole of Internet to help me through.Bad idea,for ma hair dresser loves ma hair .She keeps on praising ma hair and finally ends up giving the same cut over and over again.Don't even bother to ask how much i hate that.It makes ma life so dull. Today I'm not gonna fall into her trap.Do pray for me and Ma new hairdo........

Life to loOk beyonD

Well seems like I'm running out of topics for ma blog.The climate is so calm, its just refusing ma brain to think.Iv been wanting to get out of house badly but,seems like the rain is playing spoilsport.I love the outdoors though I'm not physically one.Iv always wanting to do something adventurous but,paragliding is the only thing i did anywhere close to that term.I'm logging for some real action ,some real drama ,some real LIFE!!!!!

Rain Rain GO Away........

The weather has the power to affect human moods and emotions.It was raining all day and ma plan to go shopping with bro was given upright wet welcome.Bro was so busy preparing for the exams that he even drubbed ma offer for a treat.Well ,thanks to the cloudy atmosphere even i and Mikku was lazying around trying to put up excuses for not getting up from the couch.All i wished for is some hot cup of tea and a blanket.Wish i could afford that luxury!!!!mama just hates me sitting doing nothing and she goes complaining on and on.To give some rest to ma ears i follow her not so sweet tunes.The one thing that really pulls me off from shopping on a rainy day is the extra burden of carrying ma umbrella around.Its inconvenient most of the time and very difficult to mange.The "whole you" getting wet....oof.....better off "NOT SHOPPING".Bro was all charged up and raring to go in the morning and later up the evening i could actually hear him sing"RAIN RAIN GO AWAY".Cloudy days do affect us adversely.A bright ,warm day induces confidence,faith and hope in us.Its still drizzling and i just hope that it stops raining..............

Confused

New meaning,a new beginning marred by some unpleasant events.I can't seem to understand what went wrong and where.I'm not going to go on explaining ma actions and expect reactions that ought to be.This time I'm to be blamed ,letting ma emotions bulldoze ma friendship.I expected to be understood but,unfortunately failed to understand the variables involved.I don't know what to do and the stakes are high.

FiNaLIy!!!

Life can't get any better.I'm one happy soul.For days iv haven't slept properly ,just staring at the blank walls trying to figure out a way for ma self.More than the pain it was the regret that was haunting me.The regret of being not wise enough.I walked heavily through the corridors avoiding people's smiling faces.More over it was the fear of being caught crying.At a point of time i started doubting ma self and ma caliber.Its a long struggle on the way to the top.Officially I'm placed and have a job at hand.Now i can move ahead and follow ma dreams,the ones that i always wished for.People around backed me ,helping me to get back to life.And finally after a long wait ,I'm back to ma self,smiling ma way through.Once again i would like to thank all those who supported me upright.

Thank You

While in the most difficult of times the comfort comes from most weirdest of places and yesterday i experienced it.What do i have common with them?.A few days of work together and occasional smile nothing more but,the first person to call me up was ma senior:Soumya after she got to know i didn't make it through.She did bring down the intensity of emotions i was going through.Then,ma seniors Govind,Narayan and Sayuj all of them personally did help me to get over ma fears.None of ma mates called well ,can't blame them too but,frankly i never expected so much support and care from the class next door.I knew from their words that those weren't the words of sympathy but,genuine concern.The first people to ring me up today too were ma seniors.Well thank you all for supporting me during ma rough patch.

Smiling all way through..........

Having to sit here,struck by pain of missed chance is really annoying.I'm really feeling sad as because i didn't make it to TCS.Well,also happy for the fact that 100 of ma friends did.Really got to know how hard it is to keep smiling while is just pain what you experience.Crying hard,cursing ma self upright but, thinking on to the right dimensions i think it was worth the time for i got the exposure and the courage to move on to ma second interview with INFOSYS.A job is every ones dream and my dream lives on in a different context.

Blank note

I don't have a topic to write on,a better wish to pray for,A dream to repeat on....This is ma life ,happy with the way it is.I know its impossible with so many things going around but iv ma reasons.Im thankful to the almighty for making ma life rich in every sense.Well, even after all this i haven't got rid of ma complaining attitude.But whatever the feeling is I'm loving it more with each passing day.Hope ma life remains as sweet as its now for ever and ever.

LOve UnExplaAineD

I found this entry pretty cute and close to heart

I promise to give you the best of myself
and to ask of you
no more than you can give...

I promise to accept you the way you are...
I fell in love with you
for the qualities, abilities,
and outlook on life that you have,
and I won’t to reshape you
in a different image.

I promise to respect you
as a person with your own
interests, and needs,
and to realize that those are
sometimes different--
but no less important--
than my own.

I promise to share with you...
my time, my close attention,
and to bring joy and strength
and imagination to our relationship.

I promise to keep myself open to you...
to let you see through
the window of my personal world
into my innermost fears and feelings,
secrets and dreams.

I promise to grow along with you...
to be willing to face change
as we both change
in order keep our relationship
alive and exciting.
And finally,

I promise to love you
in good times and in bad,
with all I have to give
all I feel inside...
in the only way I know how...
completely and forever.

Doggy Blues

A new addition to the family,a chocolate brown Labrador named "MIKKU".Well ,i sure do agree to the fact that puppies and small kids both are same:curious,bad tempered,attention seeking.She is just 45 days old and loves chewing the sofa.No matter how hard we try,she just refuses to be inside her cozy little place.But,there is one problem ,ma mom who was all in vigour when we went in to buy the puppy has lost all her fuzz and is running around the house trying to save herself .In simple words:she is scared.The only thing MIKKU wants is someone to play around with.In one or two weeks we will be shifting to the new house where she has lots of open spaces to play around.Hope the situation gets better by then.

Distance do matter

Some relations are just perfect from a distance but, when it comes to one on one chat or even a small smile the relation just falls apart.Are distant relations true to the core?.When a person on the other side of a distant conversation says"lol",we are not even sure whether the person is really laughing out loud or just frowning.The warmth and support vaporise into thin air once the distance disappears.There is always a barrier ,always something to fear about in such relations.Well i think ,if something has to remain beautiful for ever and if distance is the only key for it to remain so "let distance exist".

Spartans on top.........

How does it feels to win and that too from scratch?.Feeling good?.The arts fest finally did happen after long long wait.At the end of the first day we were in for a shock, ma group ,SPARTANS was placed last in the tally because We failed to bag prizes for literary events.The progress that we made from day 2 was just amazing and at the end of the day,SPARTANS were back on top.Day 3 began on a tense mode with three main team events and almost 70 marks at stake. The second group,MOUGHALS were catching up fast. It was a do or die situation.All our hopes were pinned upon Brand wars,Thematic dance(guys and gals).By afternoon MOUGHALS were on a lead by 10 points and the heat was rising.After the brand wars,the tensions slightly made some of us hysterical.We had to win thematic , first prize for both the events to be back on top.After the events got over we were quite sure "its either SPARTANS or MUGHALS",all it was left was to wait for the final tally.
presenter:"and the second position goes to MOUGHALS"
The next thing we knew ,we were shouting and hugging each other.SPARTANS have finally won the arts trophy.It was just the matter of calling out our name
presenter:"and the first position.........."
I couldn't hear anything at all.We drowned the whole auditorium in our excitement.Well the story doesn't end here......the innumerable photo sessions,the tears ,the joy.An array of human emotions were displayed outside CHAVARA hall.

HIP HIP HURRAY!!!!!!!SPARTANS..........SPARTANS.........

Spoiled to the core

Its always nice to be pampered and right now, i feel spoiled to the core.Lots of attention has been bestowed upon me for the past few days and ya, i do feel like an important person.All thanks to ma pals who make up ma life.I know its so difficult to live without them and sometimes i can feel the salty waters when, i think about a year from now. We have to move on with our own lives having to take critical decisions all by ourselves ,without having to depend upon people.I'm bonded ,and i can't imagine a situation without ,being close to ma pals.How strange can life get?.People coming in and moving out.Don't ask me about ma future for ,i shatter at its thought.

Blogging:A way of life

Blog,one Internet medium i never expected to change ma world upside down.It has been two year since i have started blogging and it has helped me to express ma feeling in a different way.I wasn't comfortable pouring out ma life for others to sympathise about.Ma anger ,frustration,happiness,sorrows were confined to the pages of ma dairy.It was hard for people to actually understand what i was going through and never did anyone gave a thought about it.Since the day i started blogging there were visible changes in ma fight against ma emotions.The gap of miscommunication actually reduced to a point that i never have to explain ma actions, so as to make ma friends understand.Blogging has strengthened some of ma relations which i never considered important.It actually showed me how important I'm to people's life.As long as the emotions are alive so does the blog:MIRROR.

Surviving through tough times.....

Okay so the blaming game have started.So ,anyone interested in blaming me for the bad things that happened in your life?.Interested people please, contact ma friends.
Well i think i have matured enough in the past few weeks to take such criticisms in right sense.Not always though.At some point the blame circles back hitting me hard.I don't think i can explain ma position to anyone as I'm not sure if anyone can help me out or not.Whatever it is,i will survive.

Disappeared into thin AIR!!!

I'm finding it so difficult to find answers to the questions I'm being put through.The more desperate I'm ,the more confused i get.Meetings ,partings,crushes and heartbreaks i have seen it all and i don't consider ma self worthy enough for all the attention.I have lived through ma life for the past 20 years without much complications and one fine day when i wake up to find the names of relations changed, its way long annoying.I think i need to do some soul searching to find out what went wrong and how.May be its ma inability to understand human behaviour.Its just impossible to pretend as if a person does not exist but ,i will have to do it for ma own sake.I have never asked anyone to bring in the stars for me nor will i ask for,i know there are boundaries.Love should never cross the line ,to a point where it turns into obsession.I tried ma very best in making the curved lines straight but,i think it won't help at all.All i can do is to move on with ma life pretending the world is short of a person ,a person i knew and cared for.That person never exists for me from this point of time .

Expectations Hurt!!!

Sometimes we expect too much from people that,when our expectations are met with dead end,we are left out to wonder ,Why we even bothered to expect in the first place.Expectations are always a source for disappointments and the intensity gets stronger with the fact that the person we are expecting so much, is our greatest strenght.I know i made a fool out of ma self by refusing to hold back ma tears.At that point ma emotions were over powering ma courage to hang on.More than ma id being taken away for being late,more than the botheration about missing the lecture to attend,it was incidents and people that were making the situation hard for me to handle.I'm pretty sure that it had nothing to do with ma punctuality as i had no other option.I have had people say"some days don't just belongs to you" and i have perfect reasons to believe so.The whole sequence of events didn't go the way i wanted it to be.I don't know whether I'm right in ma actions and reactions but,at that instant i just felt so and for the expectation part"I DON'T HAVE ANY"

A World Without Women

I'm angry and frustrated at sankar(ma bro) at this point for, he takes for granted whatever me and ma mom does.He never bothers to even put his dishes for cleaning.Either me or mom has to clean up the mess he creates.He wants all his stuff to be done by both of us right from ,keeping his things inorder to even picking up his used clothes.Most of the time there is no arguing with him as he flaunts his"YOU SHOUT I DON'T BOTHER" attitude.Some times it leaves me thinking.This unfair stuff being mended out to me because im the fairer sex.Try doin the same stuff as he does,then im dead meat.It calls for justice in real sense ,no one bothers to bring him under control,No one tries to give him a dose of his own medicine.Im angry and frustrated at the injustice.Why are guys like this?.Always behaving like irresponsible jerks thinking that, God created woman to work as their slaves refusing to help out,refusing to clean up,refusing to listen.They should be living in a world without women then they will understand
"THE REAL VALUE OF A WOMEN"

For your LOVE!!!

What will you do to get back something you love?.Well ask me ,and i know what ma answer is NOTHING!!.Surprised?,well most of the people are at ma answer for, i believe that if you love something let it free.Never hold to ones you love if they don't wish to be.I may seem like a selfish and arrogant person at ma answer but,imagine you want to see the person you love the most be sad throughout his/her life?.If they are happier without your company just let them be ,let them seek new paths.What i have learned is to give your loved ones enough space so that she/he may never feel that their private space is being invaded.Respect is essential in any relation and do follow the GIVE AND TAKE rule.But all this doesn't mean you don't have any right over the other person's life after they move out, let your loved one feel that you are always there supporting at right times.Well ,if you still think I'm selfish and arrogant i have nothing else to say.

IF YOU LOVE SOMETHING LET IT FREE
IF IT COMES BACK,ITS YOURS
IF IT DOESN'T ,IT NEVER WAS

Amazing Race Asia 2

Well what a surprise.The final leg of the race of The Amazing Race Asia was on air ,today and after a long while i was able to catch up to ma favorite show.Marc and Rovilson who almost dominated the race,coming first in all the legs had to be satisfied with a third spot.I think they just ran out of luck,one road block and it cheated them of the coverted title.I think Collin and Adrian got an unfair advantage as the final pit stop was -Singapore , their home country.Rovilson and Marc led by a huge margin even untill the last task,but Rovilson took whole lot of time to arrange the flag of nations they visited in order.I think he just got cracked under pressure.Collin and Adrian,who were always behind the Philipino guys were confident with the fact that they knew their weakness and strong points.The girls,Pamela and Vanessa came in the second spot beating the favorites.I think they deserve a standing ovation.All the eliminated teams were there to chear the final 3 teams.What a race it was ,a race across 13 nations,a race against time and luck.Waiting to see AMAZING RACE ASIA 3.

Parenting it right..........

Mom is refusing to go by ma theory. Parents can be so stubborn at times sticking to what they think is right refusing to what we got to say. Mom just refuses to buy ma story for, she thinks her 21 years better experience has got her sixth sense. Her sixth sense do work at times but most of the times it will land me in trouble. Well gotta make her understand i can be correct too. I love mom to a point where i can't just say it on her face that she is wrong. Well i will have to device new plans to go about.

Valentines day and beyond

What a day?.It was like any other day pale and dull. No roses, no gifts, no teddy bears just lectures AnD gossiping. What can you expect when you have nothing in life ?.I don't feel bad for ma self for I'm happy with ma life ,the way it is.Its that hard to explain to people who have fallen in love at least once and all they got to say is"how can you know"?. Well frankly i don't know and i don't feel i will enjoy the feeling upright.Life is so unpredictable dear........we will wait and see..........

PAIN-ANTINES DAY

What if a single person tries to change the world?.The world and the people will laugh at you for you are questioning something that has been the way of life for ages.I tried to break an ice and right now I'm the talk of the college.Humiliaion,booing i have suffered it all.Phantom you have done enough damage and what i am left with is ma self dignity. Valentines day is such a gross affair and i had more than enough fun.Now i need some peace of mind before i burst off.I know there are people supporting me upright and I'm only making this more tough for them by hurting them more.I am really confused right now and not in a position to trust anyone.

Love being single

I'm 20 and i don't have a love life.I don't care and so do i expect other people not to bother.Please someone just let know that i don't want to be in a position where i will have to think about the other person before i make ma decisions.I really need some peace of mind and im not ready to compromise on ma principles.People may find it silly but,this is what i live for.

Another day..........

Its just another boring day ,i wished just breeze past.Im without a job,sitting typing away ma woes on the net listening to kelly's behind these hazel eyes.The song has being in ma head replaying itself since yesterday.I can't relate to this song in any way but,it kind of makes me feel the pain of people going through rough times.Does it serve any porpose?.People probably will read this entry and laugh about it over their teas "how stupid the gal can get?".Well i dont complain nor do i wish too.Its just another day and it will pass too.

5 things i hate about myself

5.I STAY IN A CHICKEN FARM
Well im not known for keeping ma room neat.Most of the time you can see ma room in a mess.Its only when i have ma relatives or friends over i start cleaning up ma room.Ma mom always compares ma room with a chicken farm.The only thing ,chicken farm will be much more cleaner place than ma room.So on the 5th spot of 5 thing i hate about ma self:ma room
4.HABIT OF TALKING TO MYSELF
Pretty annoying to people around,yo can see me talking to ma self and all the animated characterrs around.I think i developed this habit while i was small,mostly because i dinn have anyone to play around with.I have spent most of ma time shuttling between real and imaginary world.So,the 4th spot goes to this annoying behaviour.
3.TEMPER AND SLEEP
I really get mad when someone disturbs me during ma beauty sleep.This habit has landed me in trouble often .Now,im trying hard to keep ma nerves while sleeping.
2.HAIR HAIR
Iv this habit of tying ma hair every 5 minutes.No matter how perfect it is, i tend to loosen up and retie it.Its not something so serious for i have this habit only when i donn have anything else to do.But,it is certainly annoying so, the 2nd spot goes to hair hair.
1.TISSUES PLEASE
The most annoying habit:ma tear glands just refuse to stop pouring.Most of the time i end up with the tissue rather than the film im watching.No matter what the journa of film is there will be atleast a scene which would start making me cry.Owing to this unique problem i never go out for films with ma pals.
ns-:the only film that dinn make me cry:HOUSE OF WAX...........I think i did cry at the end for saving me from 3 hours of misery.

Please flow by........

Life seems so still refusing to move.I got big things coming up ma way next week but, i can't feel the excitement,nor the flavour.Sometimes its so hard to explain what is going on for ,you don't have a clue and right now i am in such a position.Stand up make some noise and MOVE!!!!!!!!!!!!.I CaN't bear this torture of curling up in ma shell and trying to act as if im Lazy.May be i am but, i don't want the movement to stop.

Waiting for ma virus slayer........

Its now a habit to run around with a running nose.I think the cold virus loves me like hell,comes back every one month.The kind of torture I'm going through just to keep ma head up is so much.The only thing that can help me with the stupid cold is antibiotics but, ya i hate it.I have ma friends advising me on various remedies.Ya these things may work out but,who is gonna do all these things.Not me!!!.The cold has brought along with him some of his old friends this time fever,throat pain.I'm gonna spoil their party.Don't under estimate me iv got a fighter within me .Cold ya no cold one thing i hate about the whole process is having to stay on the bed.Someone please save me from the cold .Where is the virus slayer?.Can't you see you princess trapped in the dungeons of cold?Save me..............ooh!!!prince(antibodies)save me!!!!!!!!

Larger Love

Travelling everyday by the boat,I'm in larger love with the sea.I can't stop comparing myself with her.
She is so placid at times
so am i
And so disturbed at other
so am i
She is crystal clear
so am i with ma ambitions
so turbulent at others
so am i with ma emotions
She is vast
so is ma heart
She follows
so am i with good leaders
She reacts creating ripples
so am i to changes
She refuses to be still
so am i
She lets everything float by
so am i with ma attitude
She moves up and down creating high n low tides
so am i with ma life
well here ends the similarities.She is all that's not me and i am all that's not her.

Dad and the kitchen Hob..............

She was meant to help out ma mom but, dad fell in love with her. There goes the tag line for the latest romantic chart buster, one of a kind modern day love story. Dad’s never good at fixing things, the fact he refuses to accept. Well for the past one week all dad kept raving about was “HER” .Her style ,her sheen, her beauty .Well , all of us were so bitten that we wanted to meet her. We knew dad was in “LOVE”. Well you had to see mama’s pale white face. Its funny for” SHE” was at receiving end of mom’s anger. What all can a little jealousy do right?
Tatada…..She arrived today .Gotta accept the fact that she is a beauty. Black body with glass cover and golden lids .Brand new BENC kitchen hob. From the point she arrived dad was sitting next to her with the manual in his hand .As far as I remember dad had never sat next to me for so long even during ma exams. Dad was going on speaking to himself and ya off course HER. Want to know what happened after 4 hours?
Dad couldn’t fix her ,for she was far too complicated for him. Not ready to accept defeat before a lady, he went on cursing the manual .Finally dad gave up and I could hear him mumbling.
“Ladies……..what strange creatures”
Wait until ma mom hears that.

A princess finds her unicorn

Four years is too short of a time to forget someone who was apart of your life for more than 13 years.The joy of getting back something that i lost is still hovering around me.When i was informed that ma best friend for so many years have landed in town i didn't think twice...........all that came to ma head at that point was her face and the faded group pic that we took in 5th..........i could see from distance her anxious face ,as always.She has changed a lot but,she recognised me at once though i have changed a lot myself,these four years,her smile was the proof.FOr about 30 minutes we couldn't speak.When we did start, there were no holding back.These four years what kept her alive in ma memory is her occasional phone calls.When we parted ways today, i could the see her expression the same one she had on the day she left the school.I'm never being understood and felt supported as she did.People always commented on our odd pairing,as we were like opposite poles finding solace in each other.I have never felt that i have lost a friend for she was always there with me and will be.

Reason to live on

Your life becomes worthwhile when you start living for someone else.I know that i have a meaning in ma life,which is defined by living for ma parents and brother.Whenever i feel life is unfair ,the thing that helps me to spring back to life is ma parents.The love within helps me to be a better human being.Everyday i wake up hoping to see ma parent's face and i feel lucky enough to be under their arms.Sometimes i feel quite lost,loosing all ma will to live on but,the fear of missing the ones i love, ones i hold so dear pulls me back.To be honest, ma life is bonded and i don't want anything that will disturb the balance within.I know that I'm living for the right reasons and for the right people.Its a long road ahead and i may find yet another reason to live on.......

Elusive Love

I really liked the quote from Nobel prize winning poet, sir Rabindhranath Tagore’s work.
A poet falls deeply in love with an average looking girl. The girl fears that being so ordinary; he may have to repent after his marriage with her .She tells the poet that he should get married to another girl, a friend of hers, who is also deeply in love with him. In his way, she will continue to be his elusive dream.” An unfulfilled dream is the spring of poetic imagination”.
Does one afford to be so sacrificing when it comes to love? I’m not so sure. What if I am average looking? .The only thing that matters is ma heart. The maximum that can happen is that the other person may reject me but, it won’t be end of life right?. At least I will be happy that I got rejected after letting the person know about ma feelings and if he still rejects that’s his lose not mine. And he doesn’t deserve ma love. The real love is beyond appearances and boundaries but, most of us are so conscious that we refuse to come out and accept the unacceptable. Our life is dictated by various factors and looks is one of them .I have had heated debates on this particular topic many times. Ma idea and concept of beauty is something different from others not, all agree to ma point that all of us are different so, are our choices. Most important, its not outer beauty that matters but, the light within.

Truth lies

There were many instances where i knew that my decisions were not right but,neither did i have the courage to change the decision nor, did i have the courage to explain my actions.In the long process of wrong judgements iv lost so much.

Today it proved yet again that I'm so bad with things.Invited to ma classmate's sisters wedding,i failed to show up while all ma buddies did.The reason-"DRESS CODE".All of us were asked to wear Saree-the traditional kerala attire.Well as a matter of fact, i don't know how to wear one and depended heavily on ma mother.I expected her to help me out.As it turned out ,mom had to leave early to the hospital, leaving with no other option other than to try wearing Saree ma self.With no previous experience(i have worn Saree 3 times till now but,that's all thanks to ma mother and friends).Well i struggled with the Saree one hour .While i tucked in one end the other end came off.It was a mess.After all that confusion dad got pretty angry "why can't you learn how to wear a Saree?".Good question but,the sticky part is"who will help me to learn?".

But, i could have gone to the wedding wearing something else Na?.How can i?.While everyone will look their best i don't wanna end up looking like a dwarf in wrong clothes.My ego was not ready to give in at that point of time.I feel so down.....not for the fact that i couldn't' go but,because of my wrong decision some of ma close pals wont turn up either.I'm piling up big chunks of lies one over other.The reason i gave for not turning up was a "lie".I know i did a bad thing but,can't help it.I have been planning for this day for the past 2 weeks and it turned out this way.I really am angry with ma self ............really............really...............

Let the celebrations begin

Celebrations are short lived.The moments of victory is to be celebrated for you can't always expect a second chance.I think i missed the whole celebration today when ma house SPARTANS lifted the overall sports trophy.It was an effort from the part of many to take the team to victory.None of ma classmates including me deserve to be mentioned in the thank you speech as our role in the victory is almost Nil.Well no one wants to put their heart and soul out but, everyone would like to taste the wine of success.For the people who work without hoping for the rewards are left out.That is something that i despise and don't approve of.Everyone, especially deserving candidates should not be left out .As far as i see, there won't be a fair chance of happening so.

Six yards

For students like me the only thing that brings us back to the roots is the Saree that we occasionally wear during any special ceremony.The Saree culture is declining,owing to the minuses that it have accumulated over ages.

1.Discomfort-it extremely difficult to walk wearing a Saree.The biggest nightmare is that of stepping over your Saree .The whole thing can come off.

2.Time-it takes almost an hour for amateur like me to wear a Saree of my own.

3Exposure-If you are a first timer then make sure you wear the Saree properly for its vulnerable to exposure.

All these fact makes the Saree ,not gal's best friend but, a nuisance.Guy's may not agree with me but,one thing for sure ....Saree makes a woman dashing and elegant.The six yards wonder is here to stay for long years to come.

Super Mom

The only thing i hate about mom getting sick is that, the entire show of running the household chores will fall upon the tender shoulders of the second lady in the house.That's ME!!!!.That one day,i thank god for making ma mom a supermom.The way she juggles between family,friends and job can give even the authors of time management books a run for their money.At 43, she runs all over the house to keep our things in place.To live by each of our(Dad,Me and Bro)'s choice is extremely difficult.With our each new demands she manages to deliver .Even after a these household chores she works around 6 hours a day in the hospital.No wonder why i call her supermom.I may never grow up into a successful wife,mother or daughter like her but,i always try not to let her down.

To build a team.............

Responsibilities are something that i don't mind taking.But ,most of the time they start dictating ma life to a point where i start wearing out.I always find ma self trapped in ethical questions where i have to choose between ma friends and ma own self.Arts in the college is surely turning out into a messy affair.It all began with helping out the official representative,it later turned out into a full time job with me handling the literary section.Ma parents feel that as I'm not the one to be doing the round the clock job searching for the candidates,informing them and stuff .But,how can i go to ma friend and say"hey i can't help you out". Its just not possible.What hurts me most is the fact that the person for whom i am doing this is taking a nap from her responsibilities.Even ma close friends feel its time to stand up and say"enough".I can easily break ma self away but, i can't turn out on people who trust me with the job.Its a team work and its not only about me but, all of the team.I'm pretty sure that as long as no one comes forward to help the people who are sacrificing their sleeps over arts ,the entire team is gonna suffer.Its not the loss of an individual but, an entire team.Its a tough choice to decide whats right but, i have to do it for ma team.

19+1=20!!!!!

Everyone seemed to remember ma birthday but, not ma parents who actually forgot what day it was.Well, if you ask me it felt quite bad but,i think i can get over this.The day went like any other day without much events.As this was the starting day of the sixth semester the class was kind of empty.I was enjoying a ride back home and some little bit of shopping in the evening.Treat??????that was something everyone was bothered about.As two of ma best pals went missing i had to postpone it to date, much to the frustration of others.Three of us friends went into a restaurant only to end up paying individual bills and a smirk on their face.The funny part is, some of ma old pals rang me up without even knowing the day's significance.Well ma parents don't know till now that their daughter is officially 20 today.Someone please remind them. Yet another day and its just me but,I'm one year older.

SAlsA plEAse

I know that i am a bad dancer and ma bro just keeps on reminding me the fact that ma feet's are meant for walking not,dancing.When i saw Antonio Bendares staring movie in HBO today morning i had this urge to dance.From the time the movie got over i wanted to dance and that too SALSA!!!!!!!!!!.As salsa is a pair dance i wanted someone to pair with.Knowing ma experience in dancing all ma family members just refused,finally ma bro agreed and we started to dance to the tune of Enamorado De Ti. Well,I was going on spinning.Finally ma grandma made me stop ma spinning spree when she thought i would fall of somewhere.If that wasn't humiliating enough ma bro openly declared how bad i was as a dancer.For those who don't know about salsa's history here's some tiny bit of information.

The history of "Salsa" dance is peppered with hearsay and contradiction. Although few would disagree that the music and dance forms originate largely in Cuban Son, most agree that Salsa as we know it today is a North American interpretation of the older forms. New York's Latino community had a vibrant musical and dancing scene throughout the '50s but found limited success with the 'Anglo' mainstream. In the 1970s, adoption of the term "Salsa" reduced the linguistic and cultural barriers to mainstream adoption of Latin music and dance.
The modernization of the Mambo in the 1950s was influential in shaping what would become salsa. There is debate as to whether the dance we call Salsa today originated in Cuba or Puerto Rico. Cuba's influence in North America was diminished after Castro's revolution and the ensuing trade embargo. New York's Latino community was largely Puerto-Rican. Salsa is one of the main dances in both Cuba and Puerto Rico and is known world-wide.

These are some famous SAlsa tunes that you can dance
1
Me Tiene Loco (She's Driving Me Crazy) - Puerto Rican Power.This song is great to dance to and the lyrics are perfect because he's talking about how totally in love he is with his woman who's driving him nuts, and all he does is think about her... her beauty, "whenever she looks at me, she ties me up in knots".

2
Enamorado De Ti (I'm in Love with You) - Fuerza JuvenilHe's expressing how much he's in love with her. A really sappy love song -- "Both of us are going to grow old until the end of our lives".
3
Amor Lunatico (Crazy Love) - Giro"Oh my god, you're so beautiful, I saw a flower and I thought about you...It's the truth, what can I do... I can only think about you..." need we say more...
4
He Tratado (I Tried)- Victor Manuelle.He's trying to forget about her through another girlfriend, but he can't forget about how much he loves her, and she's already with another man.... "I'm happy that you're happy, but your happiness hurts me -- how can you forget about what we have?"
5
Una y Mil Veces (A Thousand and One Times) - Jerry Rivera"A thousand and one times, I''ll love you, a thousand and one times, I'll sing to you. This song will reach you wherever you are.

6
Una Aventura (One Adventure) - Grupo Niche"Life is sweet and with you on ma side its sweeter
6
Pena de Amor (The Pain of Love) - Puerto Rican Power.This song is about a guy-friend who tells the woman that she's got to learn how to forget about her ex-boyfriend; OR it's her boyfriend who's reminding her to get over her old boyfriend.
7
Bombon de Azucar (Lollipop with Sugar) - Charlie CruzA totally happy love song -- "He couldn't believe how his life has changed now that she is part of his life".
8
Mi Reina (My Queen) - Manole Another really happy and fun song to dance to. He treats her like a queen -- "she's the one I love, she's one I adore..."

Loving him more........

Sometimes we speak the unthinkable,without considering the mental state of the listener,Only to realise later that the damage is already done.One feels bad,curse oneself,give million sorries but, words don't die out easily.

Few days before ,after seeing ma room in a mess dad started shouting at me.I was so irritated at that point that i shouted back"Just leave me alone".After ma outburst dad with his Waverly sound spoke"I don't have any peace at office,construction place.I come back tired and just look at the support i get from ma family".The next day both of us forgot about the incident.

Yesterday i went with dad to the construction site and i really appreciate him for keeping his nerves even during the most adverse situation.If i would have been in in his position ,by this time i would have gone mad.We got the required stuffs after searching through the city for about 4 hours.He went back to office at 1:00pm after 24 back to back duty.I don't know thinking back i think i did the wrong thing, shouting at dad.The sense of self realisation struck me hard that he is doing so much,sacrificing his comforts just for the family.

Its for me to realise that and behave accordingly.I am trying hard not to hurt him in any ways.Its like loving him more after that incident.

"LOVE YOU DAD"

What do u want 2 teach me today?

I’m not that good with small children. Yesterday ma neighbor came in with a request I couldn’t refuse. She wanted me to look after her one and a half year old son Achu .Considering the fact that ma interaction with ma neighbors is confined to one sentence in a week ,I’m quite a stranger to Achu. Whenever he sees me, he gives me a cute smile and hides behind his mother. Armed with ball in one hand and a toy car in other he wanted to play football first. May be his ignorance due to the fact that I’m a girl who doesn’t even know how to kick a ball properly he refuse to give me the ball initially but, slowly we were plying catch-catch. After running behind the ball for 30 minutes he was done with football and wanted to play with his little tricycle. I was so tired running after him that ,I sat on the bench to catch some fresh air .Achu came running and offered a ride on his tricycle back home. Considering the size of that thing I refused. In between I had to give him water, actually make him drink, solve his fights with the elder kids. What made the whole experience a memorable one is the lessons he taught me

~Whole lots of patience
~Multitasking
~Most importantly to enjoy whatever
When his mother came to pick him up he made me promise that I will be back in the grounds today.

Just 4 the sake of a dream

Certain dreams are worth dying for while certain others are worth living for. Last day when I went to see the architect he put in ”You know your parents want the house to be constructed just as given in the elevation. They are not ready for any compromises” well. I said ”They have put their entire life savings, efforts and most important their dreams into building this new house. They just don’t want any alteration in their dream. Me and ma bro may be ready to take risks but ,dad and mom’s experience had made them wise .At this age they want to play it safe.
Its just that this particular dream is something that ma parents have natured for along time. Tough it is the second house in construction ,but their enthusiasm and spirit never die cold. It let me into a thinking process. Why such fuss about a dream?
This is what ma brother had to say ”For any idea to come into existence first it has to be dreamt of .Only dreams can later transform into action .Without dreams and hopes ,this world would have been long before become non-existent .Dreams are a source of inspiration”
May be he is true after all. May be I should
“DREAM BIG”

Watch out..........

Just watch out the amazing performance of the vadhyamellam .This video was taken during the temple festival.

Sunday

Not ma day actually.The lazy Sunday,when all one wishes for is a hot cup of tea and whole lot of relaxation.To ma own surprise got up so late that i had to rush through the stuff mom had asked me to do.When i went in to study, found that i was missing some of the papers.When i went in the kitchen to make some tea i realised that i was short of milk.Afternoon i jumped into correct the leaky tap and i was drenched in water.And then the usual clash with mom.Today was not ma day.

???

I’m moving away from everything that I once loved, everything that I believed about friendship .I see ma self as stranger trapped in ma own story .Never did I attend any of the messages or attend the calls from ma friends today. The desire to move away from strings attached is gripping me harder .I just want ma space and I'm not ready to compromise. I’m sick of acting as if am cool with people's view .Its just not fair to put so much pressure on me to behave in a way everyone wants .May be I won’t be popular after ma new decision .Who cares? .Why should I care for those who don’t care about me? These are some of the messages I received today.

AFS: What do you mean to me? From today I won’t expect anything from you.

NIV: Some relations are beyond words. You were one such me and still you are? What about you? Hah?

And there goes some more………..
Am just irritated the way things are going for me right now .Let it be the way it is. I’m ready to take the whole responsibility.

Temple festival........

These are some pics taken during our temple fest.......pretty colourful .........The best part ...elephants........i just love them ..........

For all wrong reasons.........

I am not a hard core cricket enthusiast .I never watch the game at a stretch, even when ma country is playing. But, as a patriot I can’t seem to ignore the events that took place in the Sydney test .What exactly went wrong? Who should be blamed for team India’s 122 run’s loss?
1. Umpires Mark Benson and Steve Bucknor?
2 .Australian team itself?
Ricky Ponting and his men pulled up all the dirty tricks up their sleeves to get team India down. These are some of the events of the test match that will go down the history books for all the wrong reasons.

DAY1: Though Andrew Symonds (30) edged Ishanth Sharma to Dhoni, Bucknor remained unmoved .Symonds went on to score 162.
DAY4: Mike Hussey clearly edged RP Singh to Dhoni but, umpire favored the Aussies.
DAY5: Bucknor gave Rahul Dravid caught behind of Symonds despite the ball missing the bat.
Benson checked with the captain himself before giving Ganguly caught behind, though catch appeared to have come of the ground.
Bhajji falsely accused by Ponting n co for racial remarks.
Their attitude and behavior were not that of world champions but, that of third rate tacticians’ .At least gully cricket is played with much better sports man spirit than yesterday’s game.
Umpiring isn’t an easy job. To make mistake is human but continuous mistake in such crucial game is so uncalled of. Okay leave it why wasn’t the third umpire consulted whenever a case odd doubt was put in. Instead listen to the irony, whom does the umpire listen to? The biggest cheater Ponting. MR. Bucknor….even experience can cheat. You ought to go home and play with your grandchildren.
Millions of people in India are outraged not because our country lost but for the fact that we went down for all wrong reasons.

We are behind you team India
“Chakde India”

Thinner ME!!!!!!

The only thing that ma relatives keep raving about for the past few weeks is " thinner me!!!".I paste a surprised look on ma face and say"really?".Not as if don't know the reason.All no thanks to ma diet regime, hardly i have 3 meals per day as i used to.Its always no appetite that's playing a spoilsport.The only time i have ma food is at 6:pm.Ma parents keep on wondering"how do yo manage to stay alive?".I donno...........I am not doing this to reduce ma waist line or in the hope of getting skinny like a supermodel.Its just that ma body refuses to have food or sometimes I'm just too lazy to get up from the couch and go into the kitchen to have ma food.I think i can link this sudden disinterest in food with the holidays where all i get to do is to stay at home.I need to change ma eating habits before i land up in hospital.

New year resolutions

New Year resolution for me is a self made promise that may be broken at the mid year. This time I didn’t want the history to repeat so, I took time before coming up with two things that need urgent attention .Finally, here is ma new year resolution.

1. NO MORE ADVICES
The world is wise and matured enough to choose its own destiny. Doesn’t need any of ma advises or yelling at to make it more worse for people to live in .Its an attitude that can get on peoples nerves and I desperately need to mend ma ways.

2. NO FORCED RELATIONS
Okay this is much easier. This year no ringing up old pals and saying ”hay or bye”
.As I have mentioned earlier in ma entries, for maintaining any relation an effort ought to be there from both sides. Otherwise its just one man attempt to make things worse .If a relation is meant to doom let it be. There will be no effort from ma part to maintain any

There goes ma new year resolutions…….Hoping for a great year ahead.

The year that was.............

The year ahead..........2008..........lots of challenges,lots of patience,lots of surprises........that's what is awaiting me.........if i look back to the bygone year....it was full of mixed emotions............some good stuff and some bad..............the best part of 2007????????ma new pals..............they make up ma life now.............I'm looking forward for a year full of joy and happiness............